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ZypherQueen 
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Posts: 106
(5/18/03 4:36 pm)
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 #2 Where I Belong
ZQ grabbed the hem of her black sweater, trying to keep out the blustering cold wind of the golden city. The sun was just starting to set, casting an burnt orange haze across the San Francisco sky. The Bay Bridge had never looked lovelier, not even on the starriest night could the beautiful mirage could compare.
Wanting to escape for all the untruths and ugliness of the world, Zypher escaped to the ridgetop of North Beach in hopes of finding peace. She was at a crossroad, not knowing if she had a place in this world.
All her life she had been told one thing, only to discover that it had been a lie; told to protect her from the truth. The truth was she was adopted and her real mother was dead.
Her biological mother had given her up at birth because she wasn't old enough to take care of her. That's what her parents told her, but she'd learn that her mother had given her up because her family forbid her to keep her. Being that her father was black and her mother was white, it brought shame to a deeply religious Southern family to have their daughter frolicking with the enemy.
ZQ let out a deep sigh and wiped a tear away from her cheek. She needed to find out where she belonged.
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ValsNo1Fan
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(6/3/03 5:55 pm)
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Re: #2 Where I Belong
Dear Diary,
Today I realized that I am all alone in this world. I have not a friend, a companion nor a relative I can turn to in these days of sadness.
A heavy weight of self-doubt and unstable self-esteem sits sturdy on my chest, eating away at what's left of my unstabled mind.
I just wish I was so weak, so timid...so ready to give up on life. All I've ever wanted was to be like, loved a little even but overall respected for the good person I am.
Everyone have their days, including me but just because I'm unwilling to compromise or back down on what I believe in does not make me a bad person. Oh why has the heavens forsaken me so?
Have I done something that I am unaware of? What do I feel like such low level shit? Deniable I know I could fight the urge to end it all if I want to, but why should I when there is not a place on earth I belong? Why?
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