Haven't been here in a while....
Mandra sat across from Remy with a bright smile in her face. It had indeed been a long time since she had been in this place. The people they had ordered from had seemed a little confused in her knowing their names but also seemed to be passing it off as a customer they may have forgotten. She had ordered her food spicey too.
"Before I met you, I didn't even go near spicey foods.... I still can't keep up with you on the spicey food eating but I'm getting there..." She said with a smile.
She blinkked when she remembered then barrated herself mentally for slipping up again. How was she going to stop herself from keep doing this? How could she stop herself from being like she has known him as long as she had known the other him...? She looked out the window at the scenery outside as she thought. Then, Mandra turned to face him again, smiling and extending her hand towards him.
" My name is Mandra Lola Serenade.... You can call me Mandi if you'd like... It's nice to meet you." She said in an introductry way.
Well, that was one way to go about it... She was meeting this him for the first time today so she should behave like it. She should stop treating him as if she knew him and stop teling him about the other him. She didn't want him to feel obligated to be kind to her just because of her past.. She wanted him to like her for her.. and She didn't want to be looking at him as her husband... she wanted to see him for who he was.. It had been unfair of her to have been doing what she had been so far.
" My living relatives.... here anyway... are Xavier, my adoptive father and Magneto, my biological father..." She said that part so only he could hear... She didn't need people getting all excited and such. " But at the same time, I have no family." She finished. She wasn't upset... if she was, she wasn't showing it.
Glancing about slightly as Mandra talked with the people and ordered, using their names much to everyone's surprise, she looked so happy, Gambit felt a little more cheerful being around someone who seemed so bright suddenly after meeting him when before she had been down.
"Before I met you, I didn't even go near spicey foods.... I still can't keep up with you on the spicey food eating but I'm getting there..." Sounds like his other self had it lucky then, he wondered how he had coaxed her into eating spicy food with him, was it just a casual 'come on', or was it a more seducing style? He was dragged out of his thoughts as Mandra held out her hand towards him, that's something people haven't done often recently..
" My name is Mandra Lola Serenade.... You can call me Mandi if you'd like... It's nice to meet you." There seemed to be some sort of internal decision made since she seemed keen on starting over now, the Cajun inwardly smiled at that as she gently took her hand. " My living relatives.... here anyway... are Xavier, my adoptive father and Magneto, my biological father..." Raising his brow slightly at this, Remy couldn't help wonder why her world Magneto would entrust his daughter to his greatest 'enemy'. " But at the same time, I have no family." Placing her hand down on the table, Remy let his hand remain over hers.
"Dat ain't true Chere, ya got all o'us at de school, we be ya family now, don' e'er t'ink ya alone," The only hint in his cool calm expression while he was trying to be so polite, supportive and sweet was the fact his words became thick with his Cajun accent. "So ya know tho' chere, I prolly ain't anyt'ing like ya Remy," Gambit pulled his hand away and sat up a little more, she looked at him in a way that most people didn't look at him any more. And she was actually delighted to see him, no one was ever cracking into smiles when he was around.
"If ya go an' talk wit' Rogue, you prolly wouldn't wonna talk wit' dis here Cajun again," He offered a weak little smile as if that was somehow funny, even though it was really hurtful deep down, "I jus' don' wantchya t'inking dis Remy is.. anyt'ing like yo'r Remy." Last thing he wanted was for her to think he was her husband, her Remy sounded so different, he didn't even think he'd ever settle down! So far it's been true as well, but with everyone finding their partners and settling in or outside the school. Gambit had to admit the thought of having a lady of his own was starting to become highly appealing. Which is why Rogue dating that creature had hurt him so much, not that Gambit was going to admit it though.
To Himself:"Thirty-three Thousand rounds and not one hit. A Cajun with the luck of the Irish."
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As he took her hand, she felt her heart skip a beat and when he placed his hand over hers, she couldn't help but to look into his eyes and smile brightly.
"Dat ain't true Chere, ya got all o'us at de school, we be ya family now, don' e'er t'ink ya alone," The smile became a little brighter and she tilted her head slightly to one side. " Thank you... That makes me feel a lot better." She told him. It had been the truth. What he had said made her feel not so alone in this world not of her own. Although the memories of friendship with the people at the mansion were false, she had become close to them for real... even after remembering who she really was.
"So ya know tho' chere, I prolly ain't anyt'ing like ya Remy.. If ya go an' talk wit' Rogue, you prolly wouldn't wonna talk wit' dis here Cajun again... I jus' don' wantchya t'inking dis Remy is.. anyt'ing like yo'r Remy."
Her smile dropped slightly and she glanced down for a moment. As his hand was pulled away, she felt a little cold inside and a hollowness forming at her very core. But what got her the most had been how he seemed to be feeling as he spoke those words... She may have not been a telepath but she knew him well enough to tell how he was feeling at least sometimes... " Remy, I don't need to talk to anyone to know who you are, all I need is to talk to you. You are very much like you were where I came from but I know you aren't him. You are just that, you. Whatever it is that makes you think I wouldn't want to talk to you again, let me decide on that." She said with a soft smile.
" I want to know you for you, Remy Le Beau... I will not look at you like the other I knew. I know it wasn't fair of me on what I did in treating you like..." Her hand gently reached up and wrapped around the rings though the shirt until she noticed what she was doing and withdrew her hand. "... like him... And I'm sorry for that. For putting you in that position... But now, I would like to meet you, know you, if luck permits befriend you." She told him, her smile brightening again.
Re: Haven't been here in a while...." Remy, I don't need to talk to anyone to know who you are, all I need is to talk to you. You are very much like you were where I came from but I know you aren't him. You are just that, you. Whatever it is that makes you think I wouldn't want to talk to you again, let me decide on that." But he was a lier, and a damn good one at that, that's what got him into this whole mess with everything he's ever done. From the Morlock Massacur to when he was having trouble with his powers and just trying to keep up with his previous skill was enough to make him nearly faint from the exhaustion.
"I want to know you for you, Remy Le Beau... I will not look at you like the other I knew. I know it wasn't fair of me on what I did in treating you like..." Riley's bright red eyes dropped down to watch her hand fiddle with something that lay hidden beneath her shirt. "... like him... And I'm sorry for that. For putting you in that position... But now, I would like to meet you, know you, if luck permits befriend you." There was her smile again, Gambit flashed his own charming little smile, even when he was down and depressed it seemed at least he had someone who still wanted to get to know him. Well, it wasn't that any of the other X-men where keeping Gambit out of their loop, it was more that Gambit was just finding it hard to let them back in after they had left him in the Antarctic. Even when he tries there's always that doubt that they might just do the same thing again one day.
Remy leaned back a little, watching as one of the girls placed down their food before them, Gambit didn't look as if he was very hungry, staring at the ordered meal with little interest before focusing on Mandi again.
"What can I say? Gambit jus' naturally a lotta trouble." There was a roguish smirk on Gambit's face as he spoke, as usual avoiding his problems with a simple remark and seeming to end the conversation with a change of topic, "You plannin' on hangin' 'bout for a while?" It was probably a selfish hope, wanting her to stay around instead of looking for a way back to her world.. if it was possible to get her back, but that wouldn't stop Hank from trying if he knew it was what Mandi wanted. But how many people have seemed this bright around Gambit in the past few years? None that didn't want something in return..
To Himself:"Thirty-three Thousand rounds and not one hit. A Cajun with the luck of the Irish."
Re: Haven't been here in a while...."What can I say? Gambit jus' naturally a lotta trouble."
Mandi gave a slightly mischiveous smirk and brought a hand up, running her fingers through her hair. She then rested her elbows on the table, claspint her hands together and intertwining her fingers before resting her chin on top of her hands. Her eyes locked onto his and the smirk turned to a smile. " Well, that just keeps people on their toes. I mean, without any trouble in life, everyone would probably be lounging about and looking like Blob or something." She said, tilting her head lightly to the side with another slight smirk.
Her bottom lip pulled in a little as she nibbled on it lightly while in thought. She had noticed that Gambit didn't seem all too interested in eating at the moment and she was trying to figure out if it had been somethign she had done.
"You plannin' on hangin' 'bout for a while?"
His words made her pause in mid-thought then she tilted her head straight again, releasing her bottom lip and leaning back a little, her chin no longer resting on top of her hands. She looked down for a moment, his question pulling her into contemplation. Had he been hopeful... or was it just her imagining things, still clinging onto the Remy of her own past...?
< What do I have to leave for? Where would I be going, back to my own dimension? To what? What is there for me that isn't here?.... Well, your real past, stupid. A father that actually knows who you are, your old friends, your old position in the X-Men, your real adoptive father.... No, they won't even want me back after what I have done. I don't even know if any of them survived those explosions. I had attacked Xavier himself, attacked Logan, in a rage I blew up part of the building and possably wiped out some other X-Men. They will never trust me again nor will they ever feel like being my friend after that. And I won't be able to bring myself to get close to them again for they were the ones that had....> As she thought, she watched Remy but not exactly... It would seem that she was more looking past him or through him than at him directly.
< But that is your home, Mandra... No, it isn't. A home is where you have friends and people you care about. A home is where you can trust those who are close to...> The image of Jarod's face crossed her mind and a sadness came to her heart. < Anyway, I have to fix the wrongs I have done here.... You know you decided a while ago that you were going to stay here, you just didn't decide for how long.... Well, I have nothing to go back to there. This is my home. That may have been where I origionated but this is where I am going to live out my life. I have people I care about and trust. And like Remy just said, I have a family here now too. I am going to take care of my family and friends....> She thought. Mandra's last blink seemed to bring her back to this reality.
" Actually, I'm planning on resuming the life I made here, really... That's if I'm allowed to even if my memory is back. But I'm sure about one thing... I'm staying here at least until Dad wakes up. Then, when he's feeling up to it, theres a lot I need to talk to him about concerning certain duties I have lived so long with but may have to relinquish." As she spoke, she used some ketchup on the end of a fry and drew an X inside of a circle to indicate what duties she was speaking about. " I've lived that life so long, I'm not sure if I could give it up. It's who I am. Who I have been for at least a third of my life if not more."
She took a sip of her drin through a straw as she placed the fry back down. " So in short, I'm going to stick around as long as possable. Maybe even for the rest of my life. Where I came from... it isn't my home. I would never be able to see it as that if I went back and would most likely try to get back here in any way I could find to... Although most likely it wouldn't be in the same way that I came here in the first place....." She paused, l leaning forward again and looking into his eyes again. " Do you want to talk about it, Remy? We can go someplace more private if we need to. You seem to have something on your mind and it seems not to be agreeing with your stomache." She commented. She wasn't being pushy.. at least she hoped she wasn't... She was just offering to listen if he needed to talk to someone. " And if not this time around, feel free to call on me if you need someone to talk to. I'll admit that I might not be able to find any answers for some things but I'm willing to listen and be there for you." She told him. Mandi glanced down. <Now if only Jarod knew the same goes for him... Why can't I stop thinking about him?.. I know why, it's because I've ruined his life. Made him see things he did not want to. Made him feel things he shouldn't have been made to feel. Made him do something that I can not be forgiven for.> She shook her head lightly, obviousely trying to rid her mind of some thought or another.
Re: Haven't been here in a while...." Actually, I'm planning on resuming the life I made here, really... That's if I'm allowed to even if my memory is back. But I'm sure about one thing... I'm staying here at least until Dad wakes up. Then, when he's feeling up to it, theres a lot I need to talk to him about concerning certain duties I have lived so long with but may have to relinquish." His eyes watched her draw the infamous X that was such a major part of all their lives and has been for so long. " I've lived that life so long, I'm not sure if I could give it up. It's who I am. Who I have been for at least a third of my life if not more." Remy could understand how hard it was to give up such a thing, being an X-man was all he had in his life now, it was the only stable and sure thing he's ever had, whenever he tried to leave it pulled him back relentlessly.
" So in short, I'm going to stick around as long as possable. Maybe even for the rest of my life. Where I came from... it isn't my home. I would never be able to see it as that if I went back and would most likely try to get back here in any way I could find to... Although most likely it wouldn't be in the same way that I came here in the first place....." He wondered for a moment how she had come here, he hadn't been around often in the past few months since he was off with Scott and Logan amongst others on a mission bundle of endless missions. The thought of Scott distracted him for a moment, giving him a slightly distant look as he thought. Their leader had always been so eager to return back to his wife, but the past couple of months both Gambit had noticed that Scott seemed almost eager to stay away, taking any chances he could in order to get out of the school for missions or just their hard and stressful training excercises.
Usually Gambit and Scott were the most impatient to get back to the school just to catch a glimpse of the ones they loved. But then Gambit started abvoiding the school, and now the one he loved was sleeping with a dead man, the thought was rather revolting for him.
" Do you want to talk about it, Remy? We can go someplace more private if we need to. You seem to have something on your mind and it seems not to be agreeing with your stomache." With a slight blink as he focused on Mandra once again, giving her words a chance to repeat themselves a few times while he thought over them carefully. " And if not this time around, feel free to call on me if you need someone to talk to. I'll admit that I might not be able to find any answers for some things but I'm willing to listen and be there for you." The fiery gaze watched the pale purple haired girl for a short moment before leaning forward himself.
"Seems Remy ain't de only one wit' troubled thoughts chere," He yet again masterfully dodged the topic of his own worries and swang it about to her own bothersome thoughts, sometimes he didn't even do it on purpose any more, it had just become an instintice habit to avoid his own troubles.
To Himself:"Thirty-three Thousand rounds and not one hit. A Cajun with the luck of the Irish."
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With the both of them leaned forward like this, they were pretty close and he couldn't make herself tear her gaze away from those intense eyes of his. "Seems Remy ain't de only one wit' troubled thoughts chere," She heard him state. A flash of pain went across Mandi's eyes and this time, she did manage to look away, making it seem like she was watching a person passing by. She was trying to hide how she felt but his comment had made a series of memories flash through her mind. Damned her photographic memory... She hated it now. Sure it had times where it was an advantage but this wasn't anywhere close to one of those times. The rims of her eyes and the symbol lit up a little before she took a calming breath and got the glowing to dim back to normal. Mandi cleared her throat lightly then placed on her lips a small smile before looking back to him.
" How about this, Le Beau... We will trade on the talking. You tell me yours and I will tell you mine.. Or vise versa. But one condition, we both would have to tell everything and neither of us will hold anything against eachother after.... Okay?" She said quietly. It was obvious that it was at least a little hard for her to speak out this idea and the thought of it made her nervous. But at the same time, it was clear that she was willing to do that with him. She hoped that he would agree so she could try to help him with his troubles... And she hoped that if he did agree, he wouldn't look down on her for what she told him. Her heart sped up at a little at the thought and then came the glowing again. She lightly placed a hand over the symbol to try to at least cover that up so it would not be so obvious. She really didn't feel like fighting at the moment.
Mandi glanced down at her food and realized that her own appitite had fled from her and gave a small sigh, moving the fries around a little with the hand that she wasn't resting her face in/ covering her mark with. After a moment, she looked at Remy in the face again, waiting for his reply. If he were to object, she wouldn't push the issue and would just let it drop.
Re: Haven't been here in a while...." How about this, Le Beau... We will trade on the talking. You tell me yours and I will tell you mine.. Or vise versa. But one condition, we both would have to tell everything and neither of us will hold anything against eachother after.... Okay?" Tell her everything? But there was so much... it's been so long half of it was just blurred into a tangled mess, and yet at the same time he could remember everything perfectly.
He watched her for a moment, he didn't want to talk about it, he didn't ever want to relive it, but at the same time, she looked troubled and he'd like to help her with that.. But there was an endless amount of pain in his life, he always just moved on and never talked about it, but slowly things started to catch up with him again, especially since he feels so alone these days.
"It's hard t' explain.." He started speaking rather quietly, "See, bein' who I am, doin' what we do," The rather vague statement hinted towards the responsibilities of the X-men, "So many t'ings happen t'us chere, but dere's always de knowledge dat, no matter what, de team, day become ya family, dey won't e'er leave ya behind." There was a slight pause as he allowed his fiery eyes to slip off towards the center of the room for a moment before looking down at the table. "But dat's what dey did, dey left ol' Remy to scroung around in de Antarctic, t'was so long ago, yet now, every mission, Remy looks about de school an' he t'inks 'Will I be comin' back'ere?'." It was frightening to think where he might end up, will he be lucky enough to find a miracle that'll get him out of where ever he's been dumped?
It seems he's doubting the only people he ever thought he could trust, and it was effecting everything, yet in truth that was just one of his many problems, but Rogue's romance with a vampire wasn't something he could change, besides, if she can move on, then so can he, he didn't realize he was getting a slightly bitter feeling towards Rogue for everything she's put him through.
To Himself:"Thirty-three Thousand rounds and not one hit. A Cajun with the luck of the Irish."
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As he watched her, that moment seemed to drag on as she wondered if she was bothering him too much and as she wondered if he would agree to what she had proposed. She only broke eye contace for a moment to glance around so to make sure that no one was paying too close attention. After being satisfied that they were not being evesdropped on, she looked at Remy again, her attention on him. He seemed reluctant to tell her and she shifted a little in knowing that she had brought him discomfort. Well, this was an odd way to start things off; asking someone who barely knew her their deepest darkests.
"It's hard t' explain... See, bein' who I am, doin' what we do... So many t'ings happen t'us chere, but dere's always de knowledge dat, no matter what, de team, day become ya family, dey won't e'er leave ya behind."
At the pause that followed and at what she could see in his eyes before he looked away, Mandi had an unsettling feeling at the pit of her stomache. She was glad they were in the corner of the room since it was less likely that they would be noticed much or paid attention to. She wanted to reach out with her hand and take his own but resisted the urge to do so. She just had the feeling that the following statement wouldn't be a pleasnt one.
"But dat's what dey did, dey left ol' Remy to scroung around in de Antarctic, t'was so long ago, yet now, every mission, Remy looks about de school an' he t'inks 'Will I be comin' back'ere?'."
Even the thought of that having been done to him sent a cold chill up her spine. The chill of cold rage that seemed to have still been clinging onto her heart. A small current of electricity passed over the hand that was on her face, flowed ovr her face and down her back. She forced herself calm but not before the lights flickered a bit. Mandi closed her eyes but a dull glow could still be seen through the lids faintly. Before opening her eyes again, she took a deep breath and let it out very slowly. They had abandoned him in the arctic... That was almost like sentencing him to death. A cold, cruel, lonely death... Another small current of electricity went over her body but was quickly dismissed. She changed it over to wind and just glanced out of the window for a moment to make sure she had enough control over it. Electricity was more noticable than a little wind here and there... She trembled slightly from the anger that was inside of her.
" They just left you like that... And here I was thinking that the ones here were different from those others I knew... Here I was thinking that they were all about giving chances, being liek family with those they gain the trust of... Here I was thinking that they wouldn't be so cruel as to do something like that..." She said in an angry whisper. No, she couldn't be like this.. She couldn't be angry at them... Afterall, she didn't know what had gone on.. But... She couldn't be sure on how someone could just do that to one they were supposed to be like family to...
" Why is it that they try to help someone like Sabretooth and try to give him a chance yet at the same time, they would do that to a friend?" She asked in a calmer whisper. Her tone may have been calm but outside of the building, trees were bending a little, cars were swerving and traffic lights swinging violently from the force of the wind that blew around. By the way she was looking right now, it could seem like she had felt the stab of betrayal.
Her free hand had strayed away from the fries and was claspped lightly around the rings on her necklace. They were still out of view but were no longer under the cover of the shirt. As she spoke and as she thought about everything, her grip tightened around the rings to where they left impressions in her palm... But she didn't feel that right now. It took her a few moments to realize that it was a bit too windy and when she did, she cut it off. The wind out side just suddenly went from raging to calm in a split second. Her hand fell away from the necklace, the rings clinking lightly as they were released then, not even noticing them, she rested her hand lightly onto Remy's, looking into his eyes. " I just want you to know one thing... You don't have to worry about being left someplace again as long as I am around to know about it. I swear, if they ever abandoned you again, I would track you down myself and bring you back, LeBeau..." Her expression and tone were serious as she told him this. Mandra personally didn't look to kindly on abandoning anyone in a land of frozen death. Even the thought of it made her almost speechless in anger. She wouldn't even have an animal left like that... nevrmind someone who she was supposed to be the friend of. " I'm sorry... I didn't mean to interrupt you..." She said, looking a little embaressed.
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The flickering of lights warned him that something was wrong, she didn't look at all pleased with what he had said... a spark of yellow scattered across her skin as her powers began to play up.
" They just left you like that... And here I was thinking that the ones here were different from those others I knew... Here I was thinking that they were all about giving chances, being like family with those they gain the trust of... Here I was thinking that they wouldn't be so cruel as to do something like that..." Gambit stared down at the food that was before him, no one had ever said it was cruel of them to leave him behind before.. " Why is it that they try to help someone like Sabretooth and try to give him a chance yet at the same time, they would do that to a friend?" Sabertooth.. since the Morlock incident, no, even before the Morlock incident at Notre-Dame in Paris.. since Genevieve Darcenaux, Gambit closed his eyes as he could see her falling. What would it have been like if he had saved the young woman who he had tricked into falling in love with him instead of his brother, Henri? Where would he be now? Would he still be with her? Gambit had never killed in cold blood like Sabertooth or Magneto, and yet when Magneto returned as 'Joseph' they all forgave his past and gave him a chance.
So lost in his ancient memories from so long ago, he had no once noticed the raging wind, barely even able to hear the disturbance it had caused. Only being pulled from his tormenting thoughts by the gentle feel of a smaller hand lightly resting on his own in a comforting manner. With his bright red pupils looking directly at Mandra's own bright eyes, Remy couldn't help but feel jealous that there was a world out there where he had someone who not only took his side, but comforted him as well.
" I just want you to know one thing... You don't have to worry about being left someplace again as long as I am around to know about it. I swear, if they ever abandoned you again, I would track you down myself and bring you back, LeBeau..." A flash of what he had been forced to endure in the frozen wasteland crossed through his mind, before he met Mary, the green gaseous mutant who had been the sole reason he managed to live long enough to escape the icy desert. He had been so hungry, so starving and hopeless, he had chewed the plastic off the ends of some wires, as if that might sustain him long enough for the X-men to come back and save him. The thought was utterly humiliating now, he never wanted to mention such pitiful acts to anyone.
" I'm sorry... I didn't mean to interrupt you..." Gambit was staring now down at her hand while she finished speaking, for this instant, he had the urge to just tell her everything, for once to just be open and spill everything out on the table for her to hear and understand. About New Son, or 'New Sun' as they had later discovered the other dimensional Remy LeBeau had called himself. Being a potential destroyer of worlds, his involvement with the Morlock Massacre, anything that popped into his mind he seemed willing to tell her. He wasn't used to revealing much about himself, the X-men had to work so hard to get to know Remy as well as they do and even then it was only because situations demanded them to know things, Remy rarely came out and told them unless there was something serious forcing him to reveal the sensitive information.
"What Gambit don't understand though, Rogue says she left me dere 'cause she absorbed my personality.. 'parently dis Cajun had serious issues back den," Trying to offer a small little smile, he couldn't help but add with his thoughts that he still had quite a few issues to deal with. "..So Rogue, she got her reasons for leavin' me, but what I been t'inking 'bout is.. what reason's did de others have?" Slowly his voice had trailed off, reaching down and letting his other hand rest over the hand Mandra had placed over his, offering another faint smile as he added more charmingly.
"Guess dere's no reason t'worry 'bout dat now though," Hinting towards the fact he had been deeply assured by what she had said before, though he wasn't even touching the more painful fact that he had died so peacefully as a hero, a savior of the world, and was forced back by a stubborn Rogue who was relentless in refusing to allow him to rest in peace for once in his miserable and hectic life. He still didn't realize just how angry and spiteful he was deep down for the way she forced him to return, especially since she had made his sound as if she loved him so much it would be worth while returning.. But she didn't even need him now, she had the cold arms of her vampiric lover, what right did she have to steal away the peaceful death he had been granted?
"Now your turn Mandi, what troubles been eating away a lovely lady like yaself?" Turning the topic over towards Mandra, he felt a slight relief wash over him now that the spotlight was off him and on someone else.
To Himself:"Thirty-three Thousand rounds and not one hit. A Cajun with the luck of the Irish."
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Mandra's eyes cast downward as she saw the movie of her past just fly by in her mind. She guessed that in a way, she was half hoping that he wouldn't ask her... But, she wouldn't go back on the deal. She looked up at him again with a very faint smile. The smile dropped and she looked down again before closing her eyes. His hand on hers comforted her some but she wasn't sure on how long he would touch her after she told him of the things that troubled her mind... Taking a moment to make sure her emotions were under control, she spoke. "It is something that many are troubled by, really... Guilt and regret, Remy, guilt and regret...." She began before opening her eyes and looking at him again. " but at the same time, I do not feel guilty... If that makes any sense... I still feel that if the same situation arose gain, I would do the same as I had done or more... They deserved it. But a part of me tells me that what I did made me no better than them." Mandi realized that she was stalling a little.
" I will tell you what haunts me, LeBeau... It is that I was there when the one that I loved was slain and I watched, unable to do anything to stop what was happening. It is that the person who took him away from me was someone I was so very close to. That I trusted with my life and felt like I was family with.... The thing that troubles me is that all the people I had grown to trust so deeply and care so much for had betrayed me and were part of the murder. They knew he was going to die yet they kept it from me. What troubles me is that I killed some of my closest friends... and I felt no remorse about it.... I will tell you the whole thing... I should have known that somehting was out of place when Dad sent me off to visit my father... actually suggested it. Had I not had that arguement with my father, the murder would have been covered up as some accident or something, knowing them... But it did not happen that way. I had come back earlier than planned...." She felt a chilll go through her as she remembered.
" I had a habit of checking the grounds and building whenever returning to it... Well, while I was doing that, I came across a scene I never ever thought I would see..." She paused, swallowing. She wasn't sure if she should really be telling him this... But she couldn't stop now. " Logan's claws..... they stabbed through Remy's back and then dragged up then to the side... Remy's head was seperated from his body then fell to the ground before rolling to my feet... It had happened so quickly that I didn't have a chance to react until too late... I can still remember how it felt to be hugging onto his head and not believing that he had just been killed. Then when it hit me that it was real, I just screamed... Then... I felt so cold and numb as I placed his head down gently..." She was shaking slightly now and her hand had cooled some... Of course, the rims of her eyes and the symbol were lit impressively as she began to feel the emotions surging inside of her as she brought the memories to the surface.
" I could tell by Logan's expression that he didn't expect me there and he seemed to stand ther in shock, not even bothering to sheath those blood covered claws of his... Then, as I looked at him, Twelve bolt of electricity shot out of me and struck him. Had I been thinking clearly, I would have known that he wouldn't just die from that but I wasn't.. I wasn't even thikning clearly when he tried to make an excuse. Telling me that I didn't know what Remy had done. That Remy was a murderer... That went through to me bringing me more rage from the thoughts that passed through my mind... I didn't care what Remy had done in the past... Whatever it was, it surely couldn't have made him deserve what Logan had just done to him... Right after Logan had said that and after those thoughts went through my mind, I snapped... I don't know if I killed him but I doubt that a body reduced to ash coudl regenerte all too well.... The next thing I knew it, I was at Xavier's door, sendingit flying into the room by a gust of wind... It must have caught him off guard because there he was, pinned down and unconscious by the door... I had traded to fire but standing there, I found I couldn't kill him. Even after what he ha done, I couldn't make myself do it; make myself kill him face to face. A feeling came over me. One I never had before.. I wanted to destroy everything... I wanted to destroy everyone... even myself. The next thing I remember is that I was in the closed off labs with the expiremental machiened and inventions. Ther were explosions everywhere and destruction all around me. Anothet thing I remember is that the remaining X-Men were at the door.. then more explosions before this void just opened up and pulled me in.... I doubt that if any of them survives it was many.... That void had been the way I had gotten here." She told him.
Mandi's body was shaking more thanit had been earlier and she closed her eyes to keep back the tears. They came anyway and spilled down her cheeks. She withdrew her hand lightly then covered her face with both hands. " If only I had come home a few minutes earlier.. Even a few seconds... If only I could have realized how strange everyone had been acting while they had been trying to keep what was going to happen a secret from me.... I never had a chance to tell him goodbye or say a last 'I love you'... The day I had left to go visit my father, he had been off on a mission. I should have waited for him to come back..." She whispered. It was a few moments before she was calm enough to stop the tears. The whole time, she had been expressionless but the tears had just flowed.
She wiped her eyes witht he back of her hand and looked to the side so not to be looking at him directly. " I ws supposed to be one of the casualties that day but instead, i was sent here... There must have been some reason. I do not know what yet but..." She swallowed then wiped her eyes again now that the tears had stopped. Mandi glanced at the food. " Well, it's looking like we'll have to take this to go... " She commented clamly.
"It is something that many are troubled by, really... Guilt and regret, Remy, guilt and regret...." That was something Remy knew all too well, sometimes it felt those feelings were all he was ever able to feel lately. " but at the same time, I do not feel guilty... If that makes any sense... I still feel that if the same situation arose gain, I would do the same as I had done or more... They deserved it. But a part of me tells me that what I did made me no better than them." The sentance confused the often rogue X-man as he listened, this was obviously very painful for her, and if it didn't seem like she needed to let it out in the open Gambit felt just like suggesting that it doesn't matter and changing the subject.
She however began to explain things to him, about how her lover had been murdered, Remy had an uneasy feeling swelling inside of him. He was amazed someone like her had been able to kill the X-men of her world, though they didn't sound exactly like this worlds lot, they left him behind, but they wouldn't kill him... would they? No, of course not! It was just so highly.. improbable.
" I had a habit of checking the grounds and building whenever returning to it... Well, while I was doing that, I came across a scene I never ever thought I would see..." The Cajun looked off out the window and then quickly back towards Mandra. As she went on to explain about Logan's attack, the details making Gambit even more uncomfortable as he pictured the events in his mind. She held his head? ...Mandra had hugged the disembodied head of her dead husband? That was just a little too creepy.. Remy's eyes dropped down to stare at her hand as he felt it become cooler.
Lifting his eyes back to her face, verious features glowing, her eyes and the symbol, she went on to explain about her confrentation with Logan and how he had tried to say that Gambit had been a murderer. So had they found out about the Morlock Massacre maybe? And instead of dumping him off in the arctic, they decided to slaughter him? Or was it something else.. it's not like the X-men were perfect, they've all had blood on their hands since it couldn't be avoided when fighting so many enemies. While she continuoed to talk, tears began to form, it was an impressive story, almost unbelievable, rather frightening as well..
" If only I had come home a few minutes earlier.. Even a few seconds... If only I could have realized how strange everyone had been acting while they had been trying to keep what was going to happen a secret from me.... I never had a chance to tell him goodbye or say a last 'I love you'... The day I had left to go visit my father, he had been off on a mission. I should have waited for him to come back..." She had moved her hands away, slowly Remy pulled his own hands closer towards him, watching as she took control of herself and stopped the tears that where falling.
" I was supposed to be one of the casualties that day but instead, i was sent here... There must have been some reason. I do not know what yet but..." Remy glanced down at the table as she wiped her eyes a few times to clear away the moist tears that had escaped from her eyes. "Well, it's looking like we'll have to take this to go... " Slowly Gambit stood up, staring across at her for a moment before moving over to stand beside her, offering out his hand to help her stand up, a mere formality then actual necessity. His hand took hold of hers and lightly helped her up to her feet.
"Seems we'ave one other t'ing in common chere, we both been saved from death, maybe dere is a reason for it," He offered another little charming smile, wanting to forget the topics they had brought up, "Maybe we jus' gotta wait to find out what dat reason is." It really seems they've both had it hard, but in his mind, she had it worse then he did..
To Himself:"Thirty-three Thousand rounds and not one hit. A Cajun with the luck of the Irish."
Re: Haven't been here in a while....
As Remy took her hands and helpped her up to her feet, she looked up at his face and offered a small smile. It was the least she could do after just having him listen to her speak of so much negativity. Deep inside, she barrated herself for having loaded yet another person she cared about with her problems. First Jarod and now Remy.... Mandi kept those thoughts to herself feeling like she had already brought on too many bad feelings.
"Seems we'ave one other t'ing in common chere, we both been saved from death, maybe dere is a reason for it.. Maybe we jus' gotta wait to find out what dat reason is." She felt a light blush form on her cheeks at his charming smile.It almost never failed. After she recovered from the short lasting blush, her thoughts went to his words. She had a couple of theories on the reason but she wasn't about to speak them.
" Maybe I'm here to be your bodyguard." She instead joked lightly, an almost flirting smirk playing on her lips. She was trying to lighten the mood. " Sorry about our rough beginng, Remy... But hey, maybe the rest will be smooth sailing since we got all that out already?" She commented, tilting her head to the side slightly and lightly squeezing his hands.
< Was it really a joke when you mentioned you being his bodyguard?.... Yes, I would guard him with my life. I will not see him die by someone's hand... What about Jarod?... I would do the same for him too. Even though he most likely hates me and wants me away from him, I will not let anyone kill him.... And if you go insane again? What then? ... That won't be a factor because it won't happen.> She thought, determined.
" Is it just me or is the feeling of wanting to go back to the mansion not even present right now?" She asked. Mandra didn't even want to look at any of the X-Men at the moment, other dimension or no. How she felt right now, she would rather run into her father and the Brotherhood than run into them. "How do you feel about going to the park or something instead? Or some other place of your choice mayhaps?" She inquired.
Re: Haven't been here in a while...." Maybe I'm here to be your bodyguard." From a charming smile to a more amused one, Gambit the dropped a note on the table, looking over towards one of the ladies quickly and motioning towards the money so she could see he's paid before focusing on Mandra again. " Sorry about our rough beginng, Remy... But hey, maybe the rest will be smooth sailing since we got all that out already?" It had been so long since he's been relaxed around someone, it felt nice, freeing in a sense.
" Is it just me or is the feeling of wanting to go back to the mansion not even present right now?" He had been slightly distracted with her hands, looking up as she spoke and seeming to offer a rather roguish smile that easily hinted he'd rather spend some more time out instead of back at the institute. "How do you feel about going to the park or something instead? Or some other place of your choice mayhaps?" Flashing her an enigmatic look, the Cajun guided her towards the door, opening with one of his hands and holding it open while they walked out.
It felt nice to be so calm, with all the stress he's been going through he's tended to get a bit snappish rather easily, or purposefully annoys the others just to get them aggitated. Some time outside of the school just to relax was doing him more good then even he realized.
"Dere's a nice place not too far from here," He replied a little later while they were walking, one hand was resting comfortably on her other shoulder while his other hand was fiddling with his shirt. He felt a little out of place since this was his version of the X-men uniform, he didn't always suit up, and even if he did he'd put his jacket over the specially designed outfit.
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