If Music Be The Food Of The Soul
((If it seems confusing that the narrative voice seems to change thats because I'm playing two characters in one post. Mmmm, multitasking.))
Illidan sat on the stool, looking out into what would have been darkness had not his undead eyes granted him perfect night vision, of the unopened club. His guitar felt unreal in his hands. He had been amazed to find that people were willing to pay to have him play at their club when all they had seen was a wanted add. As he tuned the guitar and adjusted the mic to the proper height he couldn't help but smile. He had selected two songs from a group by the name of Breaking Benjamin, he was amazed by how well the lyrics paralleled unlife. Or, at the very least, his unlife. He just wished that he didn't feel so anxious, he was not nervous, but curious. The last time he had performed it was a disaster, something had taken a hold of him and he had gone from being the perfect lie to revealing himself in a horrid display of artistic vision. When his show had ended most of the audience's ears were bleeding, his instrument was throughly destroyed and he himself felt very vulnerable. He was pretty sure this would be different. He looked over at the azure haired boy who had responded to his add for a bassist. He didn't think too much of the fact that he lived at the institute as well. The boy seemed a little nervous but he was holding up okay, of course he could hear the increased heartbeat and smell the nervous sweat on him, but he ignored it. The drummer and the other guitarist hadn't arrived yet, the club was providing them so he figured they were already tuned up and would be ready for sound check.
Allan found the simple act of breathing difficult. His hands were shaking and his palms were sweaty, he wasn't sure he'd be able to go on like this. Every now and then his vision would go out of focus, he was almost sure he was going to screw up, he hadn't had enough time with the sheet music and why weren't the drummer here and if he remembered correctly there was supposed to be another guitarist who was also missing. He just kept focusing on his bass hoping the other guy, who seemed so calm and relaxed that Allan felt silly, wouldn't notice that he was freaking out. Once he was done tinkering with his bass and the petals he'd be using for the night he looked up at the guitarist.
"So, I'm all set, do you think the others will get here soon."
Illidan raised and eyebrow as he cast his glance on the boy who had spoken. He was impressed, his voice hadn't wavered at all, he had some self control. "Well, sound check is soon, so I imagine they will arrive shortly. If I were you I would take a moment to relax. Get yourself together, you know." Just as put the strap over his shoulder and hefted his guitar, he heard the stage door open. He turned to see the drummer and guitarist walk in.
As sound check went on Allan calmed down, it was like playing an early set without the audience, it helped. As he settled down into the groove he lost himself in his music. And before he knew it sound check was over. As choppy as the music was during sound check it provided him with a little bit of a high. It was enough to keep him calm as people started to pour into the club. When he looked out at them he could feel his fears trying to rise back in but they couldn't, the music had left a warm glowing pit in his stomach that blocked out the fears. As he looked around it seemed everyone was really ready, so he closed his eyes and took a deep breath, and when he opened his eyes.
Illidan waited at the mic as the music started and then opened his mouth. "The day has come to an end," His eyes sparkled in the light of the spot light, the ends of his mouth rising up as he smiled at the lyrics, "The sun is over my head, my polyamorous friend you got me in a mess of trouble again." He was reminded of the many vampires he had come across in his days that had been worth remembering and they all were indeed polyamorous, not a one of them could stick to one person, the problem was they had grown so old that they cared more about being loved then surviving. Several had died by his hand because he was far to ashamed of them to allow them to live any longer. "So, just when you think that you're all right, I'm crawling out from the inside, I never hurt anyone, I never listen at all."
Allan was too busy grooving to even open his eyes, he just moved with the music, playing his hands and the rest of him seemed disconnected, he moved around on the stage with the others as if they were one unit. They almost didn't exist separately. As they moved around the stage he forgot that they had never met before this day. As the singer sang on Allan could hear the words every now and again. "They've come to get me again, the cloud is over my head, my polyamorous friend, you got me in a mess of trouble again." Allan chanced a glance at the singer/guitarist, he played and sang as if his mind were on other times and places, but he never missed a beat and his voice was so full of emotion and feeling, he was amazed, he was actually part of a group making good music for people. He could hardly believe this, he wasn't sure anyone at the mansion would believe that it happened if it weren't for the singer who also lived there. And then Allan faded away, back into the music.
"Let's go." Illidan opened his eyes as the song ended. He looked out at the crowd, they were cheering. He hadn't gotten carried away like the last time. He was actually feeling thrilled. He had found a passion that would sustain him for the rest of his eternity if he could just do this whenever he wanted. Illidan smiled out at the crowd and raised a hand to quiet them, which, inexplicably made them cheer louder. "Hey, thanks guys, we've got one more song for you before we head out of here. If you know the words feel free to sing along." His hand moved onto his guitar and he started to play, the notes coming without the need for him to look at his hands thanks to his preternatural memory. "I want a normal life just like a new born child, I am a lover hater, I am an instigator, you are an oversight, don't try to compromise, I'll learn to love to hate it, I am not integrated." If anyone was listening who knew Illidan at all, they would probably burst out laughing.
"Just call my name, you'll be okay, your scream is burning through my veins! Sooner or later you're gonna hate it! Go ahead and throw your life away! Driving me under, leaving me out there! Go ahead and throw your life away!" Illidan couldn't help but think of Danae, had that been what happened, had she just been enchanted and then it wore off, had he meant anything to her, or did she just want his strength? She always had loved power. It just felt so wrong to not be with her, especially after their beings had essentially melded into one.
"You're like an infantile, I knew it all the while, you sit and try to play me, just like you see on tv, I am an oversight, just like a parasite, why am I so pathetic, I know you won't forget it. Just call my name, you'll be okay, your scream is burning through my veins. Sooner or later you're gonna hate it! Go ahead and throw my life away! Driving me under, leaving me out there! Go ahead and throw my life away! Sooner or later you're gonna hate it! Go ahead and throw our life away! Driving me under, leaving me out there! Go ahead and throw our life away! Throw our life away! Ooooh! Throw our life away!" Illidan bowed, "Good night." He handed his guitar to the stage hand and headed off stage. He took a seat at a table in the back and looked out at the club.
Allan let out a sigh of relief as the song came to and end. He put his bass in its case and hefted it over his shoulder. He walked off stage and into the club. He looked around, there were a lot of pretty girls and they were all looking at him. Not nearly as many as the ones who were straining their necks looking for the singer, he wasn't particularly surprised. He sat down at the same table as the singer. He was quiet, he didn't feel like talking, he was still riding the high that had hit him while he was playing. He just wanted to sit there and enjoy the feeling.
Music was like a sustenance that gave life, laughter, sadness and spread tales of all kinds throughout the world and the hearts of the people that listened as well as those who were the source of it. No matter what kind of world it seemed, life was relying on similar desires, and Ishka found that the songs of these people were largely based on love and hate and anger, lost souls all trying to reach out. It was sad, and the daughter of the Owabi tribe found herself wondering if Amlarie could hear the voices of these people as she could hear the voices of those from where Ishka had been born. The eternal Songstress had followers, usually chosen by the Goddess herself, to carry out the deeds required of them, to spread the music and the tales and the emotions! Ishka had met a male such as that, who had so much love inside of him and so little chance to truly bond with any long enough. And yet tales of death and pain and warnings, old battles and lost wars, none of it mattered here, in this world, it was all about the person, the pain one felt, the loneliness suffered in a crowd, and slowly the chosen Guardian found herself understanding why these people felt so alone.
It was cold outside, the weather was cooling and the rains were coming, the days were colder then when she first arrived, but thankfully warmer then the snow a few months back. Being blessed with the ability to take on any feline of her world, Ishka could at least manage to stay curled up in small places warm and safe. Though it didn’t take long to realize that the creatures she knew and loved were not part of this world, they had similar kinds, but nothing like what she knew. None of their creatures seemed to speak, even to their champions, not one, and they all seemed so common, basic, and plain... so oddly plain, defenceless too really. There had been a girl who had seemed more like what Ishka found familiar, young, much younger really, and blue, with a tail which ended as an arrows head and fangs just as Ishka’s own. Though unlike Ishka, the girl often walked with her fur and tail showing, whereas Ishka found should she do that no sooner then was she spotted would she be chased for it, or have certain people flee from her.
The first time they had met, it had been here, Ishka had followed the girl into here, for upo her the girl, Arisa her name had been, had carried the scent so long familiar of Ishka’s once deceased companion. The very reason the Guardian had come here, Massai had given his life for her and her people and there was no way she would let his spirit be stolen from the Heavenly realm and be dragged to this other world for reasons unjust. However, as months had past, the girl had not returned, as Ishka had hoped, and while she sat, the voices of the men on stage were more focused on then the words used. Some of them she didn’t understand, some just weren’t words her people either knew or just never used. They were sad, at least one was, the other was thrilled and anxious and nervous, and yet the other... definitely the words meant more to him then the younger looking human, and it wasn’t until he had finished, until one group got down and another readied themselves on stage, that Ishka actually turned her attention towards the previous musicians. One walked as any human youth would generally walk, there was nothing out of the ordinary that drew her attention, the other, however, had a seamless grace, steady and fluid, every movement with a purpose, no wasted energy as most humans and the like tend to exert. She had seen such motions before, on her world, yet things were so different, even with her curiosity Ishka couldn’t really be sure if it was her place to examine the possibility that that male was any less a human then his companion.. Then again, most undead of her realm hardly got up and started singing in front a crowd of people!
Why was this world so strange to her?
Quietly, the blonde turned her head towards where the other two of the group previously on stage had jointly sat, her emerald eyes a piecing forest hue, that even in her curiosity held a positive force in their depths. As the sole Guardian of Hope on her world, the young adventurer was hard pressed not to be optimistic, it was not only her fate but her nature, good things could happen just as often as bad things, and those wronged had every chance of being righted once more. All you needed was hope, and the faith to trust that hope no matter what as long as you believed in it firmly enough almost anything was possible. Go to them. The voice was soft, and motherly, and warm. Yet Ishka was certain the words had not been her own, the voice that echoed in her mind may have seemed as an illusion of her inner thoughts, yet such whispers had happened before, guidance from the beings who held power over the young Owabi’s world. The clothes worn were not ones she still felt comfortable in, they were so alien to her, and covered so much, and yet most women seemed to dress in the manner she had chosen and so with the cooler months Ishka had tried to collect more things to help her blend in. White sleeves that covered her slender arms that rested on the smooth dark wooden bar, a black fitted shirt hugged her body, the chest of which had five blue stars going across it. As always, Ishka wore a head band, helping to keep her hair from her face, only a few plaits still fell freely, two which framed her face usually, which Ishka preferred, this hair piece was a blue colour similar to that of the stars on her chest. Dark stone jeans covered her legs; the black sneakers the guardian had to wear to cover her bare feet were clearly visible. It was strange how people were turned away if not dressed properly.. it wasn’t like this was considered a sacred place, though perhaps it was unspoken in this world, that music places such as these were holy places to be dressed in certain attire and certain behaviours.
Go to them. The whisper came again, and while Ishka wondered why she was being insisted to go and speak with them, the young champion only gave it another brief hesitation before swinging her legs from the stool and slinking her way towards the table at the back. There was always one issue with this world.. .saying ‘The gods have sent me to speak with you’ just didn’t seem to work as well as it did in hers when trying to break the ‘ice’ of first meeting. With a warm smile, the young woman appeared beside the table of both Illidan and Allan. In this world, the Asian rarely were born with natural blond, and while it seemed to have darker taints through it, the hair was healthy and strong, unlike the kind often dyed, and the colours were natural, though with the striking green eyes, coloured hair and Asian-like appearance, it was difficult for those of this world not to assume she was either a mixed race or wore contacts and dyed her hair.
"I have not heard you sing here before... you sing very well, are you going to return here again?" If lame was a word she knew, then Ishka may have thought of it at that point, but what counted as a polite greeting for her, made people stare as if she were speaking in a language they found very difficult to understand, trying a new approach was gaining a little more victories.
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"I have not heard you sing here before... you sing very well, are you going to return here again?" Illidan had, heard her, smelt her, long before she had even began to approach. It was difficult for anything that had blood in its veins to sneak up on him. However, he chose to ignore her, he could also smell the pheromones his blue haired companion was producing, hear the elevated heartbeat return. He found her appeal, at least physically.
Allan noticed her hair first, the way it shined in the light grabbed his eyes so suddenly that he almost blinked in reflex. He had not expected anyone to bother them after their set. He had hoped of course that an ocean of women would follow them to the table and he would at least get whatever his companion, whom was clearly unnaturally attractive and thusly would be the one drawing the real crowds, didn't want. He found himself sigh out of relief more than disappointment when the ocean had not crashed down upon them. Allan was still stumbling with girls he found attractive, even if he was getting better.
As she approached the table Allan's mind began to race, his heart began to pound in his chest, it felt like it was beating so strongly she would hear it knocking on his ribcage. He looked down, clenched his fists, looked back up to open his mouth to speak but she was facing the singer, and had already said something to him. Allan tried his best to look cool on the outside but inside he was sinking, he had fallen back into himself. He had never felt this kind of outright rejection from anyone but his parents. It brought back a lot of pain. He tried to fight it but his mind flew him through all those nights, alone, ignored, forgotten, at a speed that made his head spin. He grasped the glass of water he had been working on since they got off stage and didn't realize his hand was shaking until he heard the light tapping noise. He picked it up and tried his best to steady his hand as he took a big gulp. The water washed away the memories like an ocean of healing.
Illidan opened one of his closed eyes after a few moments of silence, and looked at the boy, he was a wreck, Illidan decided he had best step in, he had no reason to cause the boy any further anguish. "That was a good question. You had me thinking there for a while." He opened both eyes, took his feet down from off of the free chair and motioned for her to sit in it. He didn't wait to see if she accepted the offer before continuing, "It depends, I don't sing very often, it is a matter of mood. I've had some bad experiences with performing in the past. Then again, things went well tonight. The money is good, and my friend here can really play. So, I just might be coming back." He pretended to stifle a chuckle. "I feel silly, where are my manners. I'm Illidan, Illidan Ryer. Enchante." He half-stood and offered his hand.
Meanwhile Allan was still lost in his own head, he had finally forced away all the bad thoughts, and had taken to scolding himself for letting something this silly crush him inside as it had. It was only until he felt two pairs of eyes on his down turned head that his blue eyes shown up from under his azure mane. He remembered hearing a name, Illidan, was that the singer, had to be, it sounded masculine, so he offered his hand, "I'm Allan. Sorry I, uh, I got distracted." He prayed his hand wasn't sweaty, or worse clammy. He already felt severely upstaged by Illidan and he wasn't sure if he could handle all that much more. Especially after the girl rejected him before in favor of Illidan. With this thought Allan found his eyes wandering over the singer's body, he was slender, but lean, the muscle definition was clear, even in the dark, Illidan kept his body in good shape. His hair was messy looking but obviously well cared for, it had an almost supernatural luster and shine to it, his teeth shone white behind his smile. It was actually quite calming to realize that he was just hopelessly outmatched. Sure his teeth where white, his hair and body well cared for, but something about the guy sitting across from him was just, too perfect.
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The humans in this world were odd, strange creatures, similar and yet so different in their mannerisms, the one however who answered turned out not to be the human but the otherworldly being, and for the fact that mostly these lifeless creatures favoured silence and their own loneliness. Curious was the feline, her blue gaze finding itself studying the paled face of the being before her. "That was a good question. You had me thinking there for a while." Had she? that confused her a little, the question hadn't meant to cause them to fall into deep thought, but it wasn't often that his kind gave away their inner secrets, or even their inner thoughts. They were dangerous, but not all were dark, even if the Dark Lord favoured them, for often their souless ways made them perfect pawns in his army.
The creature lowered his legs from a seat, a hand directed attention towards it to offer permission for her to sit there, one she felt would be rude to decline and yet was wondering if she was supposed to take the seat or not. "It depends, I don't sing very often, it is a matter of mood. I've had some bad experiences with performing in the past. Then again, things went well tonight. The money is good, and my friend here can really play. So, I just might be coming back." The past for the undead were often long and troubled, so Ishka didn't even try and guess what he could have meant by that. "I feel silly, where are my manners. I'm Illidan, Illidan Ryer. Enchante." Illidan, the name wasn't known to her, then again, as she thought about it, none of the names in this world were bound to ring any bells, it wasn't like she knew this world, or was part of it long enough to know.
The other held out a hand, a gesture Ishka had seen often in greeting here, it was some form of salute, some warm greeting of respect she assumed, either which, the shifter new enough to take his hands with a gracious smile. "I'm Allan. Sorry I, uh, I got distracted." He was nervous, as a new initiate being tested for their ability to stand the trials as a future Guardian, the thought drew memories of her home, and yet she kept her smile steady and honest.
"And I am Ishka," For a moment she neglected her last time, and yet again had to catch herself realizing that there was no chance they would realize who she was, or where she was from, none of them would know who she was, "Ishka Owabi," It was perhaps just a coincidence that her last name could at least be mistaken for oriental as her appearence suggested she was, however she left out all the formal titles and well greetings that her people were used to saying in her world. In the past, the humans here had stared oddly at her, simple and short seemed to work the best here, and so she stuck with it for now. Slender and elegant, the young female took the offered seat and placed her hands neatly upon each other as they rested on the table. Her emerald eyes turned to Allan, "A pleasure to meet you,"
Edit: I just randomly called her eyes blue instead of gree... so changed that.
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"A pleasure to meet you." As Allan's blue eyes met hers he smiled surprisingly calmly, "Likewise." Illidan tried his best not to laugh at Allan's comment. Not the most gentlemanly response, but then again things were different now, perhaps the gentlemanly answer would've gotten him slapped, or at the least drove the girl away. Illidan decided to give Allan some room to work, Illidan mumbled an excuse and got up from the table. He wandered his way through the crowd, turning down a few of the more aggressive girls, and arrived at the bar relatively unmolested. He closed his eyes and relaxed for a moment, letting everything fall away from him as he thought, not so much about anyone thing in particular, it was like watching roller coaster go by, only the carriage seemed to go on forever. The each section representing a different thought, memory, or feeling and Illidan only gave them as much attention as they spent time in the forefront of his mind. It was not dizzying or overwhelming, it was rather calming. This evening had presented him with a serious problem, and he had, unsurprisingly, surpassed it. He was beginning to think that perhaps he was as close to perfection as could be found in this world. He held back a chuckle, he was not perfect. Why he even let foolish thoughts like that amusing him was beyond Illidan. Illidan knew damn well that he was recovering from the symptoms of such presumption, he had been played, as the current term for it was. He preferred back stabbed. Lied to, deceived, and yet he had risen above. Only to fall farther. He had been saved though. He had been shown kindness, in the face of a true monster the people at Xavier's had shown him kindness, true kindness. There was no upside for them, he was threat, would always be a threat, even as he felt, deep inside him, a darkness stirring, not evil, but dark, un-illuminated, unenlightened, primal and instinctual need to partake in a physical conflict. He almost wished he was in a bar in the 'Old', the particular term made him laugh, West.
"A pleasure to meet you." Her hand was soft and warm, it made his heart beat faster. "Likewise." Allan replied with a smile, after a silent moment had passed he realized he was still holding her hand and let go, slowly, still rational enough to know better than to just let go, as though he was disguested by her hand or something, thank you daytime television, was all Allan could think of, which sucked because what if he needed what little wit he had to reply with a joke that might actually make sense to her? Allan's second self-guilt trip of the night was cut short as Allan watched as Illidan got up and left. It was relieving and frightening at the same time, sure the guy was just too damn good looking, and charming, and smooth, but he had also helped Allan out, had watched his back and now he was leaving Allan alone. Allan tried to give himself a little pep-talk, the stereotypical, c'mon man, you can do this, just pull yourself together, ask her a question or something.
"S-so, u-uh, Ishka, umm, h-have you been in the c-city long?" He was looked down for a quick moment after asking to try and get the nervousness out of his eyes, only to see that he was running his hands through one another, he forced them to stop, took control of his breathing and slowly brought himself some calm before he looking up again and playing it off like there had been something on the hem of his vest.
((Sorry Angie pants, I can write more if you want, I ish just tired.))
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The offered hand of the Guardian was taken kindly by the other, a nervousness inside him that seemed so distantly familiar, "Likewise." It was not a word in itself that the Chieftains daughter often heard, if ever once she came to think about it, yet the meaning seemed plainly clear, even if splitting the words made it seem to hold no sense, and so she gave up any attempt of analysing the human's words and merely took them as the polite reply they were meant to be. A soft smile still poised about the edges of her mouth as he held her hand, continuing even once his fingers pulled away and began to eventually fuss over his own self.
"S-so, u-uh, Ishka, umm, h-have you been in the c-city long?" For a moment, when Ishka thought of the city, she did not see this one, this great vast forest of alient structures and the heavy scent of those mosntrous machines, instead she saw the cities of her own world. So unalike and yet fundementally the same, people huddled together, living their lives, however different, for the same reasons, suffering each day in different ways and yet suffering them all the same together. The great sky guardian's of Elrak came to her mind with a deep longing, the fantastic beasts whom allied themselves with the people of many of the cities were all great and magnificant, Elrak and Galdor's powerful dragons came to mind, and for some odd reason, with it a few faces. However, she wasn't there, nor was she at home, or somewhere she felt same in any sense, instead she was here, in this place they called a city, within a world that seemed to lack all the wonders the Guardian had taken to so naturally over the years of her youthful life.
"A few months I believe... yet it has felt like many years," The emerald eyes of the female shifter glanced down to follow Allan's gaze for a moment, there was nothing there to warrent the distraction of his attention and to be honest she hadn't expected to find anything. "I befriended someone a few months back and I know she's been here so to be honest I sometimes come just in case she has returned," Maybe offering something a little personal would help open up the lines of communication, the Owabi clan's young leader found herself sensing the Mistresses desire for her to ask something, and yet couldn't quite figure what it was that the Goddess of the gateway to the other worlds really wanted from her. "What of you, Allan, are these lands your home?" How long could she continue to speak without gaining those often common looks of curisoity or confusion, if Ishka was careful, hopefull a while longer yet till people marked her with a strangeness about her ways.