Mandi's Room
It had take a few discreet glances from Jarod on they way here to make sure he was heading in the right direction, after all, Jarod was only here for a week and this place was still huge. He spent more of his live in a simple room and sometimes in a lab to help with things, he never really went out so much, he hasn't even thought of really leaving the school grounds to explore yet. He'd leave that for a little later when he'smore used to his abilities and being free, the young Xavier glanced down at Mandi as they approached her room.
"Here we are.. I wish you a pleasent sleep, and if you have any troubles, even if it's just troubles sleeping, please feel free to call me. I can block your memories while you sleep if it's stressful for you, so at least you can rest peacefully.." He didn't feel comfortable for some reason, maybe because it still felt odd offering to help people with their memories. After all, it must be weird, for someone to be given the chance to have their memories switched off and on at their choice.. But he really did feel terrible with what she's been through.. and he wasn't sure how to help her.
At the comment about her memories being able to be switched off, she looked up from where she had been watching the floor and into his eyes. Yes, that would help her a lot.... To have them blocked so she would not have to see them everytime she closed her eyes even for a blink... She bit her lower lip slightly as she tried to force the thoughts and memories away from where they had surfaced to just at them being mentioned.
" If you want to help me...... Shut them off.... Shut my memories off and don't let be allowed to go free again. Remembering nothing is better than seeing the images of my beloved being killed and feeling everything over and over again every time I blink or lax in the slightest. Just make them all go away and not return." She said in emotionless and quiet tones.
Re: Mandi's Room"If you want to help me...... Shut them off.... Shut my memories off and don't let be allowed to go free again. Remembering nothing is better than seeing the images of my beloved being killed and feeling everything over and over again every time I blink or lax in the slightest. Just make them all go away and not return." The young Xavier stared over at her, he was so serious, he stared down at the ground for a moment in thought. Her memories may be painful, but they where hers, she would want to know why she can't remember anything when she woke up, she'd want to understand what has happened to her. What could he say?
"Mandi.." He moved in front of her in an attempt to get her to look at him when he spoke, this was a very serious thing she was asking of him. His hands rested lightly on her shoulders, he had no idea what to say, or how he should act, he's never had to talk with someone about something so serious before.
"Can't I can help you with your pain in a way that doesn't involve losing everything you hold dear, please Mandra? Perhaps.. I can ease the pain of the memories, take away some of the details, but leave you knowing that he has died? I can block some of the images of his death, you won't ever see them.. you have already lost him once, do you really want to lose him again?" Jarod spent his entire life trying to figure out who he was, he was mistreated by Cole and Blake almot every day but he didn't once complain since he didn't know any other way one could live. But he escaped A.Corp and now he was here and he was slowly discoverying parts of his life and his family that he had lost.. he wasn't sure how he felt taking away all that from someone else.. She wouldn't remember her family, her life, her love, her home or her friends, she'd remember nothing.. and it'd be all his fault. But if it was something she really wanted.. wouldn't it be cruel of him not to do it for her?
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" I know what wiull happen if I lose my memories but I'd rather have that..... look, I'll even give you a story to tell me on why I can't remember anything.... I already lost everything dear to me. And as you know, it was in none the pleasent way... I would rather have it lost through this way than that. It doesn't have to be memory loss of everything.. I can still know my name, relatives, and abilities.... I just want everything else removed.... He doesn't even know me here... I already lost him a second time because of that fact..." She said, looking into his eyes.
Pain and seriousness mirrored in her eyes. She wanted so much for the pain to stop.. for it all to be taken away.
"Look, you can even tell me anything for me to believe. I want it all gone...Please. I'd give away even the most sweetest of memories to have that happen..."
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It was a very uncomfortable moment, Jarod couldn't even look away to think, her eyes seemed to be forcing his own to look straight back at her. She was in so much pain and he wanted to help her, he did, but.. was it the right thing to do? He was so worried he'd do this and something bad would happen, what if she wanted to remember once he helped her forget? Was that how it was always going to be.. she'll realize a part of her past is missing in gaps and she'll want to search for it, only to foce Jarod to share with her what she didn't want to remember.. and then for her to want him to block it again?
Very slowly, as if her skin was burning hot, the palm of his hands hovered beside her cheeks, gently, with obvious hesitation, his palms rested against her cheeks. He's never even talked with a someone like this before, the oly conversation he had was when he talked with Storm, when she had asked him to go and help fight those vampires. And that wasn't a very indepth conversation, and there was that time that professor or scientist came and left Holly XX7 for him to take care of. He wondered where the artifical girl was now.. probably in the library reading up on her english or other studies she was curious about.
His soft brown eyes disappeared as his eyes closed and mind slipped into Mandi's, searching for the memories of her beloved, what if he took something she didn't want to forget? She wouldn't even remember.. she wouldn't know what she's forgetting, she wouldn't understand that she was in a strange world if he removed those parts of her memory. How can he explain that? When she wakes up and she remembers all these people and yet none of them remember her? What could he say to explain that to her..
"Are you sure this what you want.. do you really want to forget everything about him.." His eyes opened as he began to speak quietly, he could feel all of her memories inside of her, he could seperate them all, any containing her and Gambit being sorted out from the others without her being able to notice what he was doing.
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" I want to forget everything about everyone... You can wipe it all clean except for the essentuals if you want.. You know, like how to use m abilities so I won't accidently destroy anyhting.. my name... how to take care o myself... But if you want, you can keep the memories of you in my headtoo." She told him seriousely.
"I don't want to remember anything of my past, Jarod...But if I do remember something, I want to know my relatives."
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The fact she was asking him to do this was really eating away at him, but if he didn't do it then he'd feel even worse, and he wasn't sure what he should do.. He always had to do what he was told, and she was telling him to take away her memories.. so that's what he should do.. right? He lowered his head slightly, shutting his eyes, taking the slightlest step closer towards her, he took in a small breath. It wasn't something he was taking great pride in doing, what if she wanted her memories back.. what if he had to keep showing her and then blocking them for the rest of her life?
"Mandra.." He whispered as forms blocks in the pathways of her memories, seperating all the ones she wished to forget from the ones she wanted to keep and locking them off where she couldn't access them. He opened his eyes and smiled faintly, it was hard because he still felt so terrible, but he wanted to try and give her a friendly face.. She was scared when she didn't remember before and it had been his fault he forced her to remember.
"Are you alright?" He opened his eyes, placing a few false memories of her suffering amnesia, that she had woken from the Med Lab and only remembered her relatives, her powers, her name and she had access to everything she has ever learned. About him offering to try and help her remember everything she has forgotten.. it'd give him an excuse as to why he was holding her like this.
Slowly his fingers slipped from her cheeks as he looked down at her, his dark eyes looking over her face to make sure she was alright. He was alweady locking away her memories in his mind where he could access them whenever he wanted.. he would always remember for her.. someone had to remember her life.
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Mandi cocked her head slightly and gave a slow blink before giving a small smile. She wass going pretty good, concidering that she just woke up in the Med-lab a fewminutes ago with amnesia. She was concerned about Jarod though.
" Yea, I'm doing fine, thanks.... How about you?.. You look kind of sad in the eyes there." She replied, placing her palm lightly on his cheek.
" Did something happen? And if it did, can I help in any way?" She asked him.
Re: Mandi's Room"Yea, I'm doing fine, thanks.... How about you?.. You look kind of sad in the eyes there." He offered a smile as her hand rested lightly against his cheek, she didn't seem upset about her memory loss. She did seem more at peace, her eyes weren't filled with the glazed pain that she had been suffering from.
"Did something happen? And if it did, can I help in any way?" Well.. he was just rescued from a demonic run organization that he spent his entire life as a captive in.. then he came here and a week later helped a woman lose her memory. It felt as if all his uncertainties where drained from him at the look of concern in her eyes and the warmth of her hand, it was amazing how comforting a simple touch could be. He smiled more brightly as he thought that, if she was happy, then wasn't this for the better?
"If you are fine, then so am I." Which was true.. if she was upset over what he had done, even if she didn't remember he had done it, just upset about her amnesia in general, then he'd be more upset with himself. But if she was alright, and not hurting as she had been, then he felt better, at least she was happier, that was something.
"Good night, and I hope you have pleasant dreams." He added with another faint smile, that's what she had wanted wasn't it, to be able to sleep without remembering the pains that she had been through.
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" Good night to you too, Jarod..." She said, watching him leave the room.
Once the door was closed, she felt alone... Mandi gave a slight sigh then winced, looking down at her side. She didn't know how she had gotten hurt but it must have been some fight for her to have lost her memories like that. She felt sorry for the other person or people involved in the fight because if she was this injured, she knew she must have caused damage too.... Mandi gave a small yawn. She was tired... She slipped into the bed then into a dreamless sleep.
She woke up with a slight start, not knowing where she was for moment and flinching fromthe pang that came from the action. Mandi sat there for a moment before remembering that she had woken up in the Med lab of her adoptive father's institute with memory loss.... She gave a slight sigh. Mandi felt very alone right now as if she wasn't used to waking up without another person being there near her. She shook her head and got out of the bed.
" I'll go see Dad and ask him what to do.... I don't fel right with the idia of just sitting around and doing nothing...." She commented to herself silently.
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