For years he had consoled himself with the belief that the darkness he endured was the sacrifice needed to bring Daredevil into being. Now though it seemed as if perhaps Daredevil himself was only part of the larger scheme of things rather than the end product. And that Matts brush with death had in fact been the beginning of a new chapter of his life. One in which mutants in general and this girl in particular would might a significant part.
And so now he waited for words he wasn’t sure would come, doing as he had told Rain to do, breathing deeply, imposing calmness on himself so that he could communicate it to her, keeping any doubts he might have had about his methods or their potential outcome buried so deeply that he could almost convince himself they weren’t there. If she at all answered then they had a chance of getting through this difficult moment. If she answered truthfully then they had a chance that this moment might make things better in the future. Even if only a little.
"It... It is not so much what his image of me is as... as what he has done." This was better than he had dared to hope for, an admission that had cost her dearly but which once made could be the key to unravelling the complexes that were slowly but surely crippling her. Matt wondered what dreadful things had been done to her and hated himself in many ways for forcing her to lay them out before him, Because that was what he fully intended to do. Coax them out from under the bed like where they hid like so many childhood monsters and show her that if she faced them, if she turned the torch of her gaze upon them then they lost their power over her. Her father lost his power over her.
So in spite of the sympathy Matt felt for her plight the blind man kept his voice calm and level,as he told her.” Let the meditation deeper Rain. Let it become a pool into which your emotions can flow and when you have that peace within you then…. look through the pain and see the facts. And tell me what your father did to you.”
Re: Hesitant Labbing"Let the meditation deeper Rain. Let it become a pool into which your emotions can flow and when you have that peace within you then…. look through the pain and see the facts. And tell me what your father did to you.” She heard Mr Murdock tell her. Rain took a deep breath, trying to do just that but after having been one way for so long, she didn't know how to handle it. There came a surge of the energy, it taking advantage of her having calmed to that point and she opened her eyes quickly, forcing herself to tense and clenching her fists in a way to allow her nails to bite into the flesh of her palms.
It was burning, searing her veins and making painful trails through her whole body. She couldn't even make a sound as the discomfort muted her for a moment.... not that she would have wanted to allow the sound to escape in the first place. She was thrown into a cold sweat from tryng so hard to keep it contained... Keep herself from losing control and something happening that she would never in this life or the next forgive herself for. Peace? There was no peace, not for her. Not if everyone was to be safe. The energy always took advantage of her if she ever tried to grasp at peace or relaxation. Whenever she let go of the tenseness.
She had to stop it! It was already breaking loose though. It burned. It burned over almost her whole body. Rain dug her nails deeper, frustration over her inability to keep herself composed for more than fifteen minutes coming to mix in with the earlier anger that had visited her. Some of the energy still broke loose from the confines of her body to lash out like vipers, her unable to snatch them back in time to keep from letting them cause any damage even if it was minor. "If I knew that dieing wouldn't cut the energy loose...." She whispered to herself, not thinking of the fact that the man near her could possibly hear her.
<Stop it!> She screamed in her mind, trying to demand but at the same time plea for the energy to listen to her. She went from sitting cross legged to sitting in more of a fetal position, her knees up and her arms crossed over her chest, fists still chenched. Had she thought it would be safer to get up and run out, she would have but at this moment, she tried to make herself compact, trying to close herself up in hopes that it would help her to place a grip on the dangerous force that was trying to become uncaged.
"I appologize, Mister Murdock.... I do not seem to be doing too well of a job being your pupil so far..." She said, still more concentrating on what was going on inside of her rather than outside. There were again fresh burns but she made herself bear the pain, it was something she had learned to endure. "This is not at all an appropriate first impression." She commented, partly appologizing and mostly barrating herself. As she started to be able to trust that the energy wasn't going to surge again and break free, she allowed herself to become more aware of her surroundings only to find shock...
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He could feel almost at once that things weren’t going as he had hoped. Instead of a slowing into the rhythm of meditation Rain’s heartbeat was speeding up and as for her temperature…... Damn it. He had tried to take her too far too fast or rather he had thought to build on a foundation that had seemed solid but which was in fact resting on the shifting sand of her self esteem, and as such was now crumbling into ruins possibly taking both of them down with it.
*I should have been more careful* the blind man berated himself, as his so called pupil slipped back into her own private version of hell. *I should have known she wasn’t ready for this, that I wasn’t ready for this. Why the hell did I even think I could help her?* Heat was pouring off of Rain now though he could sense her trying to pull it back in, even though in doing so she condemned herself to suffering, while he sat on helpless not sure that his voice, if he should find some words to try to guide her back would reach her through the pain. Or that in the end it would accomplish anything if it did!
God he had been so stupid. Or rather so arrogant! All that talk of destiny and passing on the lessons he had learned. Believing that he had some sort of miraculous magic wand that he could pass over this girls broken life and mend it. Keeping her here when she had talked of leaving had been a risk and as usual he had taken it, like a blind man jumping off a building but this time with no super senses to save him. The only trouble was that he had taken Rain with him.
Such were Matt’s thoughts as he felt Rain start to burn up and if he was in fact being too hard on himself then that was something he would only realise later and accept later still. Yes he had taken a risk and yes the girl was suffering because of it, but the fact remained that for a moment at least there had been control and revelation and a first step towards understanding even if that step had been made on broken glass. And if the price she now paid was a high one it was perhaps because the prize they were working towards was worth it.
Still here and now that was hard to imagine. This didn’t look or feel like progress. It felt like torture and a torture he had imposed upon her. Matt had hoped to bring her peace through his actions. Instead it seemed that the only peace Rain could envisage was the ultimate one, or so it sounded as she whispered "If I knew that dieing wouldn't cut the energy loose...." The despair in her voice was as clear to him as the tendrils of energy that writhed around her , so many fiery whips waiting to burn him as they burned her if he got to close. And yet how could he stay away?
Because Rain wasn’t a stranger now or even a pupil! As she folded into herself, trying to contain what no one should ever have been expected to contain he saw what she really was. A child! Brave! Frightened. Alone! Cast off by all those who should have cared for and protected her yet still battling on. Even if sometimes, like now the battle seemed too hard.
And so, because he saw this despite his blindness, because he had promised her that he at least wouldn’t leave her to face this by herself, Matt did the only thing he could. Reaching through the vicious web her power had laid around her, feeling the filaments lick and wrap themselves greedily around his body like acid ribbons he drew her close and held her, not as a lover would, but as a father should , while she blazed in his arms like fire.
If she hadn’t somehow been channelling the majority of her power upwards then perhaps he would have died then and there. As it was he merely burned.
There was no red leather costume to protect him, only skin that was already starting to blister and some smouldering bandages that covered a body already damaged by an enemy and now further damaged by a friend. The pain assaulting senses all to ready to receive and multiply it ate into him, threatening to overthrow him as her power had momentarily overthrown Rain but like her he fought it down, refusing to let it take control as he rocked her and stroked her hair.
“There, there Rain” he said softly “Its all right. Everything’s going to be all right”.
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Horror went through her as she came to realize that Mister Murdock was closer than he had been earlier, in fact, he was holding her as her father never had and smoothing her hair while he rocked her gently. A good deal of confusion came along with an avalanche of other emotions that all came at once to leave her near frozen as she didn't know how to react. At first, she shook, never having been comforted in the way he was comforting her now and never having expected anyone to do something like that... especially with what had gone on. “There, there Rain... Its all right. Everything’s going to be all right” He told her even though she could hear the discomfort in his tone.
"I could have killed you....." Was all she managed to get out and even that was strained as the trembling worsened before she couldn't hold the tears back anymore. This man was trying to help her and what had she done? She had allowed herself to lose control, to let her grip slip and because of that he had been caught up in something she should have taken by herself. "I.... should have.... had more... control..." She gasped out in between the sobs she swallowed. Rain was raised up not to cry, not to let the emotion wash over her like this but it was too hard right then. She had to let herself be weak, unable to just harden up this time.
"One of the... things he did ..... was throw me away... into a world... that I don't even know..... And... and I can see why..." She told him, unable to steady her words even though she so desperately wanted them to be calm and collective as they should have been. Rain could understand because having thrown her away into the unknown world like this meant that she was no longer in the property of his which in turn meant that he no longer had to worry about her or deal with her. She was no longer a danger to his interestes and no longer his problem and she couldn't blame him for getting rid of her with how dangerous she was.
She was so angry with herself.... She should have had more control than that. Much more control. This shouldn't have happened... But.... But Mister Murdock wasn't yelling at her. He hadn't moved away but embraced her and he hadn't been afraid of her or disgusted. "I... I do not know how to thank you or how to... appologize for this......" Rain managed to get out. "I know that... we need to get the doctor in here... To see what I did to you... and to help you." She added, self loathing stabbing into her.
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Her words had reached him on some level, even if it was on one so profound that it had gone beyond the pain. And that was no mean feat. It had in fact taken a few moments for his mind, concentrated as it had been on reining back his sense of touch to something like an endurable degree, to register the apologies that had come his way, leaving his words of comfort already given, as they would have been in any case.
There was no apology due on Rain’s part as far as he was concerned. After all she had never been in the wrong. If anyone had overstepped their boundaries here then it was him. It was a small step from daring to presumptuous and he had taken it with consummate ease. So now it was only fair that he paid the price!
And it was heavy. As he had known it would be when he had clasped her in his arms. He was holding………. fire…………….. a burning bush that uttered truths he needed to here and yet which consumed his flesh as the biblical one never had. But then again he was no prophet.Far from it. He was just a man, no matter what powers had been granted to him, and one that, as Rain so rightly pointed out was nothing less than mortal.
"I could have killed you....." she said wretchedly, before breaking down, finally driven by the power of her own emotions into overload. . Matt held her as the tears came, rocking her gently as her emotional pain spilled out to match and perhaps even exceed his physical suffering. "I.... should have.... had more... control..."
It was like a litany, one she whispered to herself each day of her life, the be all and end all of her existence as far as she was concerned and while the blind man now saw, all to clearly, the need for it, he also felt the easing off of the power that raged within her as her own emotions found some outlet, as if instead of flaring up to seek release it now fell from her like the tears she had held back for so long. And as that barrier had come down so now did the one which kept her from talking about her father.
"One of the... things he did .....” Rain sobbed, “was throw me away... into a world... that I don't even know..... And... and I can see why..." Matt sighed inwardly, keeping her close even as his body screamed at him to draw back, refusing to let her go though his skin split and wept in her heat.. How could he when she spoke to him of rejection? Of being discarded as worthless by the very ones who should have seen her through this ordeal? No! That was unthinkable to him as the man he was and even less as her self appointed teacher.
And so, as he had done so many times in the past, Matt concentrated his will, letting it push him far beyond his limits, keeping him close and steadfast now and for however long Rain needed him to be even if he now trembled as she did, albeit for different reasons.
"I... I do not know how to thank you or how to... apologize for this......" Rain stammered on as he strove for control over his voice , the voice he had played like some instrument in so many court rooms and which now threatened to betray his weakness when he most needed it to echo strength
"I know that... we need to get the doctor in here... To see what I did to you... and to help you. Matt gasped, half in denial of the pain which the alien machines he was connected to kept ever present , preventing the burns he was experiencing from crossing the threshold of the unacceptable into irreparable but sometimes welcome numbness of nerve damage, but mostly in denial of her words.
Hey he said softly, his pain etched undeniably both in his features and in his words,”You didn’t… do anything to me,.. Rain. I walked into this… with my eyes wide open. “Irony and the last gasp of humour he could offer . And it was true, even his pain ragged voice managed to carry that message forward “You saved me” Matt told her simply . “You.. controlled…….; your power. You…. channelled everything away from me and around you………. And that….. is something any teacher should be proud of. “
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She could feel his tremors and smell the burnt flesh and that only worked on making her feel worse about what had happened.... What if she had caused perminant pain for him? Rain wished that it hadn't happened. That she had just walked out when she had first began to instead of stopping and being foolish enough to think that she was safe enough to try to find help without putting him into a terrible risk. She sniffed adn gave another sob, stifling the sob with her hands as she felt like she was being too weak. She shouldn't be crying. If anything, she should be finding some way to get herself sealed away or something so she wouldn't do this again.
"Hey." His voice cut through her thoughts but the agony in his tone did nothing but to make her thoughts on trying to find a way to be in a way quaritined to increase. ”You didn’t… do anything to me,.. Rain. I walked into this… with my eyes wide open." The joke was lost on her as she failed to find any humor out of the situation in the slightest. She couldn't let him take the blame. He wasn't inside her; he couldn't have known how dangerous she really was as he couldn't feel the constant struggle the energy gave her to be let free.
“You saved me” How? How had she saved him? As Rain blinked the tears from he reyes she could see some of the damage she had caused on him. Damage he most definately didn't need on top of the other injuries he might have already had. She felt sick. Not sick from the sight of the burns or the smell of them but a sick at herself and the situation. “You.. controlled…….; your power. You…. channelled everything away from me and around you………. And that….. is something any teacher should be proud of. “ He finished.
"It didn't feel like control to me... I should have been able to stop it sooner... Then you wouldn't be all burned up... Please, Mister Murdock, if it happens again... Please don't put yourself through this again... Just stay back so you don't get hurt by me... again." She said, closing her eyes once more in self disgust.
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Something was wrong. Dreadfully wrong. Hank stared in dismay at the screen on which Matt’s vital signs were being monitored, watching his heart rate peak as if he was in battle and his temperature… Dear god he was burning up.. literally… It had to be Rain’s doing, this sudden inferno that his patient seemed to have been plunged into. Already the security system was funnelling flame retardant foam into the roof cavities, obviously in response to damage incurred to med lab itself while the Shiar machines Matt was still hooked up to tried in their own fashion to battle the fire that seemed to rage around him, channelling their efforts away from old controlled injuries into these new and unexpected ones.
It was his fault that this was happening! If he hadn’t brought the two of them together than Matt would have been tranquilly meditating, doing what he was supposed to do in this place, healing. But no. Hank had had this great idea and now…… Instead of protecting his patient he had placed him in harms way and now it was Matt who was paying the price for his folly.
Something had to be done and done quickly but Hank was damned if he was going to rush blindly in and risk making things even worse. Swiftly he toggled the button which activated the camera in Matt’s room, expecting to see some scene of dreadful destruction when instead what he did see made him shake his head in amazement.
There was a battle going on all right but it was between Rain and her powers. And she wasn’t fighting it alone. The wounded man sat with her in his arms while her weird fire blazed over him and if his face reflected the pain it cost him to do so, it was also strangely peaceful as if there was some part of him that even these flames couldn’t reach and that part was there to keep her safe.
It was always easy to say that you would walk through fire for someone. But to actually do it and for someone you had barely met? That took a rare brand of courage. The same courage that sent a blind man out night after night into the streets to try to make at least one small part of New York a better place. ‘The man without fear’ Hank whispered softly “Ah my friend they don’t know the half of it!”
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She had pulled away, taking the flames with her and yet still he burned, his body unable to turn off the pain even if its source had been removed. Matt took shallow breaths, forcing his mind back into something like control, or at least enough control so that he could follow her words and find some way to answer them.
"It didn't feel like control to me...”Rain told him bitterly, denying all that she had accomplished in the face of the damage she had undeniably wrought. I should have been able to stop it sooner...*Yes but you did stop it* he wanted to say. *If you hadn’t I wouldn’t be here now* but somehow the words got caught up in a throat that was parched and hoarse with pain and not even his will could help him to rasp them out.
What if he lost her because of that, even after all that had gone before. It could happen. It had in the past. Sometimes there was one given moment when you needed to say the right thing. And if you missed it then everything changed. There had been one with Electra. One small shining window of opportunity in which he could have saved her, in which he could have saved them both if he had just spoken. ‘I’m Daredevil!’ How hard would that have been to say? And yet he had held back and she had gone on hating the masked man she thought had killed her father. And she had died!
Rain didn’t have anything to teach him about guilt. He had lived with it every day since Bullseye had taken the life of the woman he loved. It had eaten him up and nearly destroyed him both as a man and as a crime fighter. Without friends to help him through it probably would have done just that. So now it was true that there was one thing the blind man knew all to well. Guilt was only constructive if you learned from your mistakes. Drawing it around you as an excuse not to act, never to take a risk, was letting it win. Letting it blind you! Dying a little inside instead of living a life that could in some way make amends for what you had done!
He didn’t want Rain to fall into that trap and yet she surely would if she didn’t let people in. No matter how terrifying that idea might have been for her. He had wanted to show her that or at least to show her that there were people who wanted to be let in no matter what the risks. Now though, silenced by physical constraints he couldn’t seem to break, he wasn’t sure that he hadn’t done just the opposite. So his relief was immense when she looked at him and said “Please, Mister Murdock, if it happens again... Please don't put yourself through this again...”
So he would get another chance! She would come back, despite his spectacular failure as a teacher, despite even what she considered to be her spectacular failure as a pupil. And knowing that somehow seemed to ease the pain more effectively than anything the alien machines had done up till then. “Just stay back so you don't get hurt by me... again." Rain went on miserably, unaware of the effect her words had had on him. Hell he had even got his voice back.. even if it wasn’t in the best of working order.
“Ok” he said softly” It’s a deal. Under one condition! You promise not to worry about this” Matt went on with a smile “and I promise not to throw myself headlong into danger. Well at least where you’re concerned that is. Even I can’t change the habits of a lifetime!” His tone was gentle and self mocking as he acknowledged his own limitations and above all kind. “And as for now…….” Blind eyes turned unerringly in her direction “you should get Dr McCoy to hook you up to one of these machines. he told her “We both have some healing to do and these work wonders believe me!”
Re: Hesitant Labbing"Ok... It’s a deal. Under one condition! You promise not to worry about this” Mr Murdock told her with a smile. How he managed to smile with the amount of pain that was surely on him, Rain could not even try to fathom. Another thing she could not bring her nrain to tackle and understand was how in the world she was supposed to not worry about what had happened? Not only had she hurt herself due to her lack of control but she had hurt this man who seemed to be so forgiving about the issue. He had tried to help her... even though he had the chance of being killed for it he had held her through the ordeal and endured the energy that attacked him. The man had wanted to protect her when he should have been more worried about protecting himself.
“and I promise not to throw myself headlong into danger. Well at least where you’re concerned that is. Even I can’t change the habits of a lifetime!” It was as if he knew that she had just been thinking about his safety and how he had thrown it aside. Rain hoped that if something like this happened again, he would keep with his promise even if she wasn't sure if she could make that promise of hr own about not being troubled over what happened today. But, if she didn't make the promise... did that mean that he wouldn't be bound to keeping himself safe if the time ever came she lost control to that point again?
She felt tired. It came suddenly without warning and she stifled a sigh. Rain was tired not only from the battle she had had with her energy to keep it under control once more but emotionally from the worry guilt and anger. The fatigue concerned her as it made it harder for her to cling onto the tenseness and made her want to just give herself a break. Giving herself a break would just be chaotic so that was out of the question.
“And as for now……. you should get Dr McCoy to hook you up to one of these machines.... We both have some healing to do and these work wonders believe me!” Her new blind mentor told her. "I just hope that... that when I retrieve the doctor, he will not have me just leave... Even if that may be something I wouldn't blame him for doing." She replied before slowly standing then moving away from the bed. She took a glance around and shook her head in shame of how the aftermath of her slip up looked. "I will be back as soon as possible...." She told the man before searching for Dr McCoy.
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The doctor sat anxiously monitoring the situation, a situation he had ultimately created when he had brought Matt and Rain together and which had resulted in both of them getting hurt. Had it been worth it? That was something he wasn’t able to say at present. All he knew was that enough was enough, especially as far as Matt’s health was concerned. And yet, despite everything that had gone before, the doctor hesitated, not wanting to risk either provoking another disastrous reaction from Rain , or undoing all the good work that the blind man might have accomplished thus far by simply barging in and dragging Rain out, however diplomatically he did it. At the first sign of any renewed activity on the part of Rain’s power he would do it though and devil take the consequences. He wasn’t about to lose one patient even if it was for the sake of another.
It would be infinitely better though if things could come to some sort of a natural conclusion on their own. Surely Matt must have realised that as well! Though to be honest Hank was astonished that the lawyer was functioning at all, never mind carrying on what looked to be a lucid conversation, given what he had just gone through. The blue mutant was tempted to activated the sound system and listen in to what was being said but he refrained from doing so knowing that such eavesdropping couldn’t be justified by any concern he might have had for their respective safety: after all Rains power was all to easy to see, he didn’t need sound to let him know when it activated. Still he couldn’t help but wonder what they were talking about or what their relationship would be like after this near disaster. Had it died in the flames or been tempered by them into something stronger? And if it had deepened was that necessarily a good thing? Hank had thought so when he had set all this in motion. Even now he was convinced that Matt could help this girl to find her way. But at what cost? Certainly a higher one than the doctor had anticipated otherwise he would never have suggested that they meet.
Now though it was too late to turn back. This incident would have consequences and not just the physical ones burned into both of their bodies. Either Rain would retreat further into her solitude convinced more thoroughly than ever that she could only be a source of pain to those around her, or they would work things out and Matt would put his life on the line each and every time they trained together. Neither option was even close to being perfect but one held out at least a glimmer of hope for the future, and, Hank thought with a sigh, putting his life on the line was in the end something Matt did on a daily basis. So the doctor waited with a certain amount of trepidation and a good deal of guilt for things to sort themselves out one way or another, knowing that all he could do now was lend them support whatever the outcome might be. And it seemed that, thankfully, he wouldn’t have to wait long to find out what it was.
Hank was on his feet and heading towards the room before Rain even made it through the door, her strange emotive eyes obviously looking round for as he strode into view. “Rain” he said softly , taking in the new burns that covered her body. “Come, come and sit down. Let me make sure you’re all right. Then we should get you hooked up to one of the machines as quickly as possible” he told her sympathetically. “You’ve suffered more than enough for one day. Now its time to heal.”
Upon suddenly seeing Dr. Mc Coy in the doorway she had been about to walk to, she paused. Rain wasn't sure on how to go about bringing up the topic of her accident.. It wasn't like she could just say something like 'Oh by the way, I charred one of your patients'. That would just be too strange of a way to describe what happened. Unable to get anything out, she just watched as he looked her over and as concern seemed to fill his eyes. Would he be so concerned if he knew that she wasn't the only one who had gotten burned? That Mister Murdock had gotten the worst of this accident? She felt a little sick. She also felt a bit more sapped as fatigue tugged at the corners.
“Rain... Come, come and sit down. Let me make sure you’re all right. Then we should get you hooked up to one of the machines as quickly as possible... You’ve suffered more than enough for one day. Now its time to heal.” The blue furred man told her. Lauraina hesitated and looked in the direction she had come from. "I... I do not think that I'm the one you should look to first, Doctor." She near whispered out, her now almost black eyes lowering to the floor near the man's feet. "It's Mister Murdock... He needs your attention more than I do I believe... I really can not appologize enough for what happened. I should have had more control... But yes, could you... could you please look at Mister Murdock first? These are really nothing." She said, looking over her own burns.
They really weren't anything to her compared to the damage she had caused on her new mentor. "I will try harder next time." She told the blue doctor with regret in her tone. "And Mister Murdock had promised to stay back if I lose control again... On the condition that I do not worry about what had happened...." Rain trailed off then gave a stressed sigh before getting herself to look at Doctor Mc Coy. "I am thinking we might have a problem with that as I can not help but to worry as this should not have happened. With this.... this ability, power, whatever it is to be called... I have a responsability. A responsability to pay attention to the warning signs of when I may need to concentrate more on it not coming out and one to make sure I can fight it when it tries... I didn't pay enough attention and I relaxed too much."
She swallowed and took a calming breath before shaking her head some. "Mister Murdock suggested that I be.. 'hooked up' to one of the machienes... After what happened... will it be safe? I do not want to cause any more damage or harm."
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Rain was too pale and in too much pain for him to be at anything like ease. And yet it wasn’t her own problems that were foremost in her mind. . "I... I do not think that I'm the one you should look to first, Doctor." she told him steadfastly. "It's Mister Murdock... He needs your attention more than I do I believe...”
Under normal circumstances it would have been true. But then again, under normal circumstances it was all too probable that Matt would be dead or dying at this point in time. Though that wouldn’t necessarily have been Rain’s fault!
No that guilt would have been placed squarely and justifiably on Hank’s shoulders! After all he had been the one who could have best assessed Rain’s powers if indeed anyone could have and……..Damn it all. He had known how stubborn Matt could be. Or rather how dedicated he could be to a cause. The line between the two was so fine it almost disappeared. In any case, now it seemed that it was immaterial.
Rain and Matt were two elements designed react together. That much he had sensed from the start. And nothing that he had witnessed in their interaction had led him to believe otherwise. The chemistry , even if it was on a psychological level rather than a physical one was nevertheless obvious and their connection more than he had hoped for. Though, as this incident showed, it did come at a price.
I really can not apologize enough for what happened. Rain went on contritely I should have had more control... But yes, could you... could you please look at Mister Murdock first? These are really nothing." They didn’t look like nothing to him , though he had to agree that Matt had come of worst. But then again, although may not have seemed so to Rain, he was receiving treatment at this very moment , whereas she…
"I will try harder next time. And Mister Murdock had promised to stay back if I lose control again... On the condition that I do not worry about what had happened...."
"Hank gave a sigh of relief and followed it quickly with a pleased smile. So they had weathered this storm after all. There would be other sessions to follow this one, sessions in which hopefully progress would be made without further damage being done, though he doubted that Matt’s promise would hold if Rain needed him to step in more than she needed him to be safe. Still the promise had been made and that counted for something. In fact, Hank wondered, if it hadn’t been, would this girl would have consented to training with him again? It was far from sure, for certainly all of her concern at the moment was directed towards the man who had suddenly and unexpectedly become her teacher, rather than for her own condition.
Now it was her turn to sigh as she said "I am thinking we might have a problem with that as I can not help but to worry as this should not have happened.” That was understandable to say the least and Hank listened with sympathy as Rain went on “With this.... this ability, power, whatever it is to be called... I have a responsibility. A responsibility to pay attention to the warning signs of when I may need to concentrate more on it not coming out and one to make sure I can fight it when it tries... I didn't pay enough attention and I relaxed too much."
If only more students thought that way. Oh it was certain that not many had the potential for destruction that Rain possessed or the lack of control that in her case unfortunately came with it but still….. Any power, no matter how harmless it might seem, or how well behaved, had to be treated with respect. Though with Rain that respect was taking over her life. And that was not a healthy solution either. Some kind of balance had to be struck between the two and Hank was convinced that what Matt could teach her would help bring that about. .
"Mister Murdock suggested that I be.. 'hooked up' to one of the machines...Rain said rather hesitantly After what happened... will it be safe? I do not want to cause any more damage or harm."“ It will be perfectly fine my dear” Hank reassured her. “And as for the damage, well med lab has seen a lot worse and so has Matt. And since he is already hooked up to one of the machines he is recovering even as we speak. As you should be too.” he told her with a smile, gently coaxing her towards one of the waiting rooms.
“Come on. Let us get you installed and under some covers. I promise you’ll be feeling better in no time. And then we can get down to the really important questions… like…”he winked mischievously at her worried face “Do you take sugar in your hot chocolate? “ Edited by: HankMcCoy13 at: 7/9/07 1:29 am
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The doctor didn't get angry, didn't seem to get upset or to show dissappointment in her failure to keep under control. If anything, he seemed to be understanding and at ease to a point. She gave a small swallow as her emotions rolloercoastered through her rising and falling and just going all over the place. In the past, she wouldn't have thought about the what ifs involving her father and the way she was raised... But those thoughts were slowly filtering in now. Like; what if her father had looked at her like that after the incident that made the final step in revealing she was a mutant?
“ It will be perfectly fine my dear... And as for the damage, well med lab has seen a lot worse and so has Matt. And since he is already hooked up to one of the machines he is recovering even as we speak. As you should be too.” Dr McCoy stated, his words seeping into her thoughts and pulling her back to the surface. Her eyes went from grey-green to amber. She blinked and the color locked there, the amber having liquified in a way to make it seem like the stone the color was named after. Instead of scolding her, this blue man seemed to want to reassure her.
“Come on. Let us get you installed and under some covers. I promise you’ll be feeling better in no time. And then we can get down to the really important questions… like…Do you take sugar in your hot chocolate? “ Again, he was kind. Again, he seemed to worry more about her recovering than the fact she had caused damage on both a part of his medical lab and on a patient of his. With her emotions still swirling around, she found herself wanting to express gratitude but unable to think of the words to. Instead, she found herself bowing in respect.
"I... I don't really know how to.... how to thank you, Doctor." She stammered out some while keeping a firm grasp on her energy. At least she had finally found something to say rather than figeting and being stuck in indecision on how to react. "As.... As for the hot chocolate, I am not really sure how I prefer it. You see; I have never had any before. I was going to try it eventually.. the same with Pizza and Soda and the other things...."
Re: Hesitant Labbing"I... I don't really know how to.... how to thank you, Doctor." Rain said , her eyes now the warm yellow of amber. The bow made Hank smile again, though not out of any sense that it was amusing. Rather he was pleased that Rain’s control had been so far re-established as to have let her fall back into the formal attitude she had shown when she had first made her reluctant way into his med lab. "As.... As for the hot chocolate,”…
Hesitation! Was it going to be followed by a refusal? Hank hoped not. After an experience such as the one Rain had just lived through, a good influx of sugar helped settle the nerves and in Hanks eyes there were few better ways than the traditional cocoa to get it into the system. Besides there was something intrinsically comforting about hot chocolate! A sense of home and safety that few other things managed to convey so thoroughly! And nothing would do Rain more good than a little sense of belonging.
So it was all to the good that she was apparently open to the idea, her slight pause in answering due not to reluctance but rather to inexperience. I am not really sure how I prefer it.” Rain told him, adding. “You see; I have never had any before. I was going to try it eventually.. the same with Pizza and Soda and the other things...."
“Goodness me” Hank said a solemnity behind which it was easy to see the friendly humour. “This is indeed a great occasion then. Your first hot chocolate! What a responsibility for me. I only hope I can rise to the challenge. Seriously though“ he went on indicating one of the waiting rooms. "It will taste even better once you are comfortably installed and on the way to recovery. Let me help you into bed and then….. well lets just say that chocolate is like comfort in a cup. And it seems to me that you could do with some round about now."
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