Another Time Another Place - March 18-
It had been a some time to say the least that the face of the vampiress known as Bethany had been anywhere close to the institute for any amount of time. The reasons that had kept her there had almost disapeared and although she was one herself Beth always had a feeling that there were more out there of those she hunted that needed to be taken care of.
Beth sat on the roof of a old church that unlike most of NY seemed to be forgotten over time, much like her. The sun although bothersome didnt kill her as it would have any other vampiress but Beth was not entirely immune . For the moment she tolerated it as she looked down she thought back to her experience at the institute.
She was never really one to love it had always gotten in the way of her job but her time at the institute had her eyes set on someone like her but at the same time a little different. Regardless of her heart she had always tried to be a friend to Spike and the friendship had started off slowly developing but her feelings got in the way. As she sat there thinking about all that had happened she kept thinking back to Spike and how he was. She remembered how much of a tortured soul he was and although she tried she could never really understand where the pain came from.
{"Maybe with some time I should go back and see how he's doing"} She sat there and debated whether or not to look her friend up or to leave it be.
Soft paws padded along the path, a silky black tail swayed gently in the wake of the beast, bright blue eyes peering ahead as the male pantha moved forward, weaving between the ally ways and avoiding the street life. Damn these abilities, one moment Spike would be prancing around the halls of the institute, the next he’d be on all fours and playing hide from the humans. Still there was a desire for no one to know, he was already an animal in the eyes of many, he wanted to be considered more human but that was impossible with all of what was going on.
Daybreak had come, he was so tired and he knew he should sleep, but he got caught up hunting, an increasingly difficult instinct to control but at least he was focused on hunting demons. Though his stability to wavering, anger seeming to take over swiftly lately and he wasn’t entirely sure why. He was anxious and tempered and nothing seemed able to quench the thirst he felt, though being on strict diet now under Beast’s care meant Spike was hardly able to go have more then his fair share… Originally he had planned to spend the night drinking but it seemed day was coming and his blasted form once again ruined a perfectly planned night by not deciding to cooperate with him. The sun was rising and Spike’s strength was waning, his furred lips producing a reasonable sounding sigh as he soon curled up in a corner of one of the many dark allys and decided to work with the problem the only way he knew how… sleep. When he woke he’d return to how he was again and he’d go back to the school and everything would be ok…
The few hours that passed as he slept did return his body to normal, but left him looking vulnerable and alone in the ally which soon resulted in the tired creature being nudged away quiet unceremoniously awake by someone’s boot lightly. A rather displeased grumble came from the blonde vampire who scrunched his eyes and looked up at the gruff looking human who loomed over him. A slight disorientation had Spike glance around trying to see where he was and more importantly trying to remember how he got there… memories always felt like dreams when he thought back to his time in his animal forms.
"Put these on and get up." Spike blinked at the hoarse voice and more so at the fact there was items of clothing being thrown at him, he was about to retort rather snappishly before he realized he hadn’t been wearing anything in bed so logically when he turned he didn’t have any items of clothing on him. While the rugged and torn jeans seemed wearable enough, he didn’t want to even guess what smell was on the stained white shirt. Spike didn’t really say much, he stood and slipped his legs into the jeans, bare feet scuffed slightly with dirt of the city floor though it didn’t bother Spike in the slightest, either did the faces of three others behind the bloke who had offered the clothes. All human, all looking at him oddly enough though, he was wondering what twist of fate he’s gotten himself entangled in now but really didn’t have the heart of bßtching about it just yet.. First he wanted to see what exactly was going on… they were definitely human, and by their street worn clothes and less then appealing smell he guessed they were homeless.
"Now come with us." The guy spoke again, rather demanding and his voice a definite air of threat within it, Spike tossed aside the shirt and frowned unfavourably upon the blade which was pulled from within the folds of the clothes the man wore. "Come on now, our lady could have use for you, ain’t nothing better to be doing." Yellow teeth grinned back, Spike’s only reply a raised brow as he stared back at the mortal, an unbidden smirk slowly forming on the paled features and a chuckle softly leaving the vampires lips.
"A lil’knife? You think a lil’knife will stop me?" It was amusing, really considering Spike’s reputation back home and even here he had a name, especially in the last year, but back home if someone did this to him they’d be peeing their pants just by seeing him asleep! This one was actually… what was he doing? Kidnapping him perhaps? Pale hands seemed to be grasping the males wrist before any could react or even pick up any sign of Spike’s reflexes, unnatural strength gripping hard onto the arm until a the pressure forced the man to release the grip he held on the rather polished blade. "How’bout… you don’tell anyone you saw me, an’I might just not kill you right now… if ya lucky, I won’t hunt you down.. an’trust me, I can find you and your stench anywhere.." Human features distorted and Spike talked, vampiric features forming and bright eyes becoming a golden hue, with fangs seen in a displeased snarl that followed the vampires words. The grasp was loosened as he struggled back in fright, all of them startled by the appearance and hastily retreating, their retreat was followed by Spike giving a clear snarl, perhaps enjoying himself too much at the sight of their fear as his roaring snarl echoed after them and their screaming retreat.
Perhaps… not the best approach, he shouldn’t really be making himself so obvious, but he was fed up with all this secrecy sometimes he just wanted to set people straight… He closed his eyes as he leaned against the wall, then looking down at the end of the ally that was bathed in light and felt himself groaning at the thought of making his way back to the school. He didn’t realize just how yell and distinctive his roar was, he was too out of it still from just waking up and feeling amused by the stupidity of clueless ruffians…
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-
Bethany's long black trenchcoat gently blew behind her as she stood up to take her leave. If it hadnt been for her job she could have sat up on that roof all day long thinking about her life and its different aspects that had led her to where she was and what she was... But there was a job for her to do.
Turning she walked along one of the beams of the old churches roof looking below at the people beneath her, it was hard for her to think about the fact she used to be one of them. As she walked toward the edge a few thoughts coursed through her mind. Her life before the Vampiress, before becoming the demon hunter, the Dark Angel she was now. Spending long days figuring out where her life was going, what this girl could show for herself. And now her life had changed beyond her wildest dreams!
Suddenly her thoughts were interupted by a smell on the air, a smell that noone but her and her kind would be able to identify. Each demon seemed to have a different smell, sometimes pleasant sometimes discusting but each scent was unique. Beth was lucky her scent always had more of touch of nature then that of the big city which if a trained demon went after her wouldnt take long to pick up. This scent however was very familiar in a warm and welcoming way. One of her few friends she ever had and it was hard not for the Vampiress to mistake Spike and his scent which always seemed to have a smell of liquor whether he was sober or not.
"Well well this is a interesting turn..."
She stood on the edge of the roof looking down into the alley where she caught Spikes scent to see him curl up in a corner of the alley and seemingly trying to rest to the unexpected visitors and how quickly they were disposed of.
"He hasnt lost his touch...."
She smiled turning around and walked down the roof to where the alley started and jumped down landing gracefully . As she started to walk towards him Bethany could tell something about him was off. But then again if some idiots tryed to turn her into a possable victim she wouldnt be in the best mood either. She decided to lean on the side of caution and walked up slowly till she decided to speak up.
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-
Movement was heard, first above him and then swoosh and it was on his level not too far ahead… just at the ally’s mouth it would see, his eyes squinted at the glare of light that beamed off the polished windscreens of a parked car that had pulled to a stop right at the end, waiting for the green light to return before it continued on. The bleached blonde vampire however didn’t rely solely on his eyes, and was rest assured of who was approaching him with a few sniffs of the air.
"Well hello Blonde." The voice made Bethany just as recognizable as her scent had, though Spike tensed up a little, his arms moving to attempt to obscure his upper form from her view for a moment. She was a demon, a soulless creature and yet she was like him…She fought her own kind and protected the mortal world from the supernatural predators. A traitor to their own kind and yet never once regretting their choice. His still demonic features looked at her, not having reverted after scaring off the humans who had hoped to recruit Spike into their lady masters circle, what could have happened unknown to the vampire who gave the mortals little thought now they have left him alone.
A moments pause had passed and Spike’s arms lowered as he watched her, a frustrated sort of snarl escaping him as he figured she was sent from the school to keep an eye on him. Slight paranoia there since he was trusted enough but still, he was used to distrust and he was on a diet now, perhaps they thought he snuck out all night to have a feast on freshly hunted blood!
"I don’need t’be spied upon," Yellow eyes flashed as another car sped by in the distance and reflected enough light to catch Spike’s eyes, the burst of brightness causing him to shut his eyes and look away, raising his arm to shield his face from the traffic. There was a vicious growl as he backed into the corner, finding shelter from the distant glare of light being shone off the windscreens of the cars that zoomed by on their way to work. "Where you been?" It was a slightly calmer tone, but he seemed a little out of it, he was so tired still, and disorientated from waking up in the strange location. "Looked for you… didn’t find you… went for a walk instead." The hang over from the previous day’s drinking could have a fair deal to do with his fragmented thoughts, his head throbbed a little but mostly because of the brightness. His eyes remained closed for now as he leaned against the wall, a sound that resembled a purr was heard, though it wasn’t obviously that as his body slid down the wall, just some deformed sort of growl which vibrated in his throat. "…I don’like spendin’ all day just lurkin’round there…nothin’ t’do…no one t’do.. she won’t even look at me!!" By ending of his sentence he raised his voice up into a near snarl and his leg kicked out to slam against an already dented dustbin, the metallic object slamming hard in the wall across from him. His body slumped forward to the floor, half curling with his face down as his muscles tensed again. He was so angry, so betrayed and confused, he didn’t know what to do anymore, some of him didn’t even care what was to come next.
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-"I don't need to be spied upon,"
Bethany backed off for a moment as she heard a low growl come from the blonde vampire in front of her. She watched as he moved a little farther into the alley, obviously to avoid the lights which although werent particularly annoying to Beth now she could see her reacting similar after a while. She waited for a couple brief moments then spoke up.
"Spike I wasn't spying on you.....I picked up your scent randomly although Im glad I found ye."
"Where you been?"
He seemed a little disoriented but his response had calmed a bit and Beth could see she could get closer to him and not worry about anything happening. As she moved in closer she felt her more inhuman instincts kick in. She had wanted to be around Spike for some time but his attraction to another made this a bit difficult so she stayed his friend but things had changed and she at least had a shot with him now. She shook those feelings from her mind, she was there to comfort him now
"Well I do have duties away from the institute plus sometimes it's a downer anyway. There's not a lot to do around there anyway. I dont know most of the base of students there anyway apart from you really so when your not there it makes things bit dull. The hunt is what keeps me going."
"Looked for you didnt find you went for a walk instead."
She tensed for a moment watching him show a hint of anger kicking a nearbye already dented dustbin and then slumped down the wall.
"I dont like spendin all day just lurkin round there nothin to do no one to do.. she wont even look at me!!"
"Well......."She said kneeling down next to him putting a hand on his leg."Im here now thats what friends are for...."
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-
"Well......." The was instantaneously seductive, Spike didn’t flinch however when her hand rested against his thigh, he didn’t respond at first, when he did he just pulled his hands away from his face and offered a rather muddled stare. "Im here now thats what friends are for...." Golden eyes stared at her, if he hadn’t been 100% focused earlier, he was now, showing that it was distress, and emotionally brought on distress, not a mental imbalance, he was still there, still sane, as sane as the scared creature could be in any case. His moved, still cold, though not so heartless any more, the fingers touched her hand, curled about it gently, but lifted it off of him.
"You don’ understand what it’s like, you don’t understand the differences. I was in love once, before I died… I was so in love an’ I ached for her…’s her fault I died, everyone who eve’suffered me did so coz of her.. an her words." Although at first Spike had intended to let go, he found the link with Beth comforting, strangely so, like the close contact he had with Arisa, there was something about touching that, even when not truly intimate, was still so comforting. His other hand moved, cupping her smaller hand between his larger ones and closing his yellow eyes as he leaned his face against their hands. "I woulda don’ everythin’ for her Beth, I would givin’ her th’world, but she said I was beneath her, if she hadn’t o’said it.. I wouldn’ave been out in the dark on my own, wouldn’ta met Dru.. I think Ro’ thinks I’m beneath her too… why else was she actin’ so strange? Why else did she leave me? She pretended she didn’even know who I was!" His eyes opened, looking up at her, the pain in the vampiric face somewhat strange since usually vampires didn’t hold such emotions. Then again, spike was never like most vampires, even before he had his soul he was never quite like them. "Dun you see Pet? When I look at her, I feel like I did all those years ago, I feel on fire again, I feel alive, I look at her and don’t want her flesh, not like I used to, I want her arms to hold me Beth, I need’em to hold me.. I need to feel her holdin’ me." His eyes teared up again, though his body leaned into the other vampire, his hands still cradling her own, his eyes closing again… he was so tired of being treated as if he wasn’t worth anyone’s time or attention, almost as if his love was meaningless.
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-"You don’ understand what it’s like, you don’t understand the differences. I was in love once, before I died… I was so in love an’ I ached for her…’s her fault I died, everyone who eve’suffered me did so coz of her.. an her words."
Beth's reaction to Spike at first was mixed at best. The vampiress wasnt the best at dealing with others emotions since she was turned, the only thing she could ever do was try to understand and hold on to what little humanity was left in her personality but even that had been slipping away slowly as of late. As she held his hands he seemed uncomfortable at first and seemed like he wanted to let go but didnt. Beth wasnt concentrating on that though she was listening to his words. It didnt take much thought to figure out who he was talking about. the complex relationship he had with Rogue.
"I woulda don’ everythin’ for her Beth, I would givin’ her th’world, but she said I was beneath her, if she hadn’t o’said it.. I wouldn’ave been out in the dark on my own, wouldn’ta met Dru.. I think Ro’ thinks I’m beneath her too… why else was she actin’ so strange? Why else did she leave me? She pretended she didn’even know who I was!"
Beth just listened, she listened to every word with understanding as she processed it all in the back of her mind. Beth was always more of a listener and tended to let her feelings known after the other was finished and this was no different. As she listened though she did notice Spike continued to hold her hands for what she determined as comfort and made no push to stop it.
"Dun you see Pet? When I look at her, I feel like I did all those years ago, I feel on fire again, I feel alive, I look at her and don’t want her flesh, not like I used to, I want her arms to hold me Beth, I need’em to hold me.. I need to feel her holdin’ me."
Beth watched as Spike's eyes teared up, this was a rare site for her which gave some idea of how much pain the Blonde vampire was in. He started to lean into her and again Beth made no move to stop it. She finally took the chance to respond although she didnt know how it would come out.
"Spike, I know its hard and as much as Ive tryed Its been extremely hard to understand your feelings for those in your past but I think I have a better understanding. Your heart yearnes for Rogue I understand that but all your doing is hurting yourself over something that was not your control. Im not her so I cant say that she'll miss anything but anyone who doesnt hold you with as much regard as you do them you shouldnt shed another tear for them."
As Beth continued she tryed to find the words but it was becoming difficult her feelings for The vampire leaning on her were starting to interfere.
"Your feelings for her and how you regard her are something very beautiful thats for sure but things are different in her mind that is for certain. You do have someone who cares for you very much Spike and shes right in front of you. Ive had feelings for you since I met you and Ive had to hide them away since you were with Rogue but I have yearned to be with you since that first night on top of the roof. I love you more then you will know Spike in you I see a kindred spirit."
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-
"Spike, I know its hard and as much as Ive tryed Its been extremely hard to understand your feelings for those in your past but I think I have a better understanding. Your heart yearnes for Rogue I understand that but all your doing is hurting yourself over something that was not your control. Im not her so I cant say that she'll miss anything but anyone who doesnt hold you with as much regard as you do them you shouldnt shed another tear for them." What did that mean? Rogue didn’t hold him with respect? ……Well no, obviously she didn’t, not if she would pretend she didn’t even know who he was. Slowly Spike’s eyes opened, her words were strange for a vampire, for any kind of undead really, normally they didn’t understand humanity in such a way, they didn’t speak like that, they didn’t talk as if once they were human.
"Your feelings for her and how you regard her are something very beautiful thats for sure but things are different in her mind that is for certain. You do have someone who cares for you very much Spike and shes right in front of you. Ive had feelings for you since I met you and Ive had to hide them away since you were with Rogue but I have yearned to be with you since that first night on top of the roof. I love you more then you will know Spike in you I see a kindred spirit." A flare of anger burned, was that the only reason she pretended so well to speak so kindly? Because she was toying with him? Wanting to lure him into a calmer state and take advantage of his body just as Dru had done so?! Well he wasn’t a puppet any more!! He wasn’t a mindless, snivelling cowered at the mercy of his sire’s, he was free, he was more stable and more aware then he had been in centuries and he wouldn’t let himself fall victim to another vampires and her greedy ways.
"An’ what does’at mean exactly Beth?" He snapped as his body straightened, tensing as it pulled away from her, his feral eyes seeming to glimmer from the emotions which dwelled inside of them. "To luv someone… do you even know what it feels like to love? Vampires can’t love Bethany, they can’t feel like humans can’t… Always hollow.. empty…Our hearts don’t rush in excitement, out breaths don’t quicken, our bodies are dead. I was always different to others though.." Spikes voice softened as painful memories returned, "…that’s why they hated me, Angelus an’ Dru I mean.. I always had just a touch of humanity left in me…I thought I could feel love, thought that’s what I felt towards Dru but it wasn’t. I understand that now… my heart may be dead but I got back my soul an’ it helps me feel again." His pale hand pressed against his front, "I’m nothin’ like you any more… I’m something totally different, so far from bein’ human and yet nothin’ like a true vampire either. I’m nothing, lost between the worlds an’ so far gone I dunno if there’s eva a chance I’ll be normal… for a vampire or a human, I’ll never be like th’others."
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-
Beth senced a change in Spike's dimeanor again in response to what she said. She knew what she said might do the opposite of what she had intended it to do but it was a chance that she had taken.
"An’ what does’at mean exactly Beth?"Her assumption was right on as the Blonde vampires body tensed up and withdrew from her, her heart sank a little bit at that moment. "To luv someone… do you even know what it feels like to love? Vampires can’t love Bethany, they can’t feel like humans can’t… Always hollow.. empty…Our hearts don’t rush in excitement, out breaths don’t quicken, our bodies are dead. I was always different to others though.."
"I’m nothin’ like you any more… I’m something totally different, so far from bein’ human and yet nothin’ like a true vampire either. I’m nothing, lost between the worlds an’ so far gone I dunno if there’s eva a chance I’ll be normal… for a vampire or a human, I’ll never be like th’others."
Beth listened but was fighting back a lot of emotion, she was a vampiress yes but some of her was still human, even if there was only a little peice of it left. Beth clung to that last peice every moment for fear of turning into the monster that she had been hunting and slaying every night.
"Spike how can you even say something like that? Do I know what it means to love?.... Yes I know Im a demon Spike Ive known it for ages but part of me even if its a small peice still has emotion, I fight the feelings in me every moment to keep whats left of my spirit alive, with every demon I kill at the same time its like Im winning a war in my spirit. You may not have feelings for me Spike but that little peice of me does for you."her back leaned against the brick siding of the alley as she searched herself for exactly what to say.
"You've had past loves Spike Ive had nothing! Ive been by myself since I was turned and this....what my life consists of is all I have. You may be nothing like me anymore Spike but Im nothing like others if I was do you think I would be here spilling what I have left inside of me to you?! Id give anything to find someone but Ive spent instead trying to keep whats left of me....me"
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-
"Spike how can you even say something like that? Do I know what it means to love?.... Yes I know Im a demon Spike Ive known it for ages but part of me even if its a small peice still has emotion, I fight the feelings in me every moment to keep whats left of my spirit alive, with every demon I kill at the same time its like Im winning a war in my spirit. You may not have feelings for me Spike but that little peice of me does for you." He hadn’t meant to hurt her, but of course his words would, he told her something that was harsh yet somewhat true, but still… not all vampires were cold and ruthless, Spike was proof of that, and he shouldn’t down others so readily. But he couldn’t help it, he couldn’t help but be anything other then miserable and negative.
"You've had past loves Spike Ive had nothing!" He did hurt her, his eyes dropped and he shut them feeling more wretched, not only for what he made her feel but also because he wondered about what she said, about his loves… were they all ever really that? Rogue, he was sure he cared about her deeply, but was it love? How could he know for sure? And Dru… he didn’t love her, he was positive of that, he lusted and craved her affection because he had no other, but he feared and hated her for the things she had done to him. "Ive been by myself since I was turned and this....what my life consists of is all I have. You may be nothing like me anymore Spike but Im nothing like others if I was do you think I would be here spilling what I have left inside of me to you?! Id give anything to find someone but Ive spent instead trying to keep whats left of me....me" Strong crystal blue eyes peered over at her again, their depths so drained and tired, miserable and upset, yet still managing to keep their handsome splendour. He didn’t want to think about humanity, he didn’t want to talk about love or loss or past lives!
"I don’know who I am any more.." He was so confused, she was struggling to find herself, but he was still trying to find himself as well, it was so hard, and all the changes around him, it wasn’t making things any easier! "..I dunno wha’t’do… an’ I got to see McCoy in a couple o’days, so much, I feel sick.. an’ hungry.. I feel like hamburgers an’ chips." Random, very much so, yet Spike was too used to his split trail of thoughts that he hadn’t realized how quickly he had hopped from one thing to another, his body once again slumped lightly against Beth’s, his voice and body both seeming to be sapped of energy.
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-"I don’know who I am any more.."
Bethany listened and felt for Spike but she knew that she had only a inkling of a idea of what he was really going through. To her it seemed like he had been through hell itself and survived but was still suffering the mental hell that had plagued his life over the decades. Beth was still so very young compared to Spike but she felt more in common with the Blonde vampire then anyone else.
"..I dunno wha’t’do… an’ I got to see McCoy in a couple o’days, so much, I feel sick.. an’ hungry.. I feel like hamburgers an’ chips."
Beth had gone from upset to understanding to confused in seconds flat! Spikes thoughts were always jumbled to say the least at least when Beth was around him she experienced that but almost every time she thought she was used to it something else would be said that brought it back to step one .....but that just added to his personality however unusual a personality trait it was.
"Well I saw a diner not to far from here if its something fast food wise your after thats a good place to start ?"
She looked over at Spike who didnt seem to say yes or no to Beth but he had said thats what he wanted and until he said otherwise the Black haired Vampiress went by that. She walked over and put a hand on his shoulder and started to lead him out of the alley onto the mainstreet.
"Should only be a block or so from what I remember course Im usually not a burger person myself but eh I can open up the choices this time"
She said smiling as she lead Spike until they came to there destination and walked inside. "Fastfood havent had it in a long time."Edited by: Creed XM at: 2/17/06 3:03 am
"Well I saw a diner not to far from here if its something fast food wise your after thats a good place to start ?" Diner? The last time Spike had been in a diner… he couldn’t even remember really, so long ago… he was sure he was up to no good at the time, and it hadn’t been the menu that tingled his taste buds. A hand touched his shoulder, her body leading him away from where they were stationed, he followed without question, though his mind was numb and his body ached too much to disagree with anything at this point.
"Should only be a block or so from what I remember course Im usually not a burger person myself but eh I can open up the choices this time" Most vampires weren’t, eating normal food upset their digestion system, if anything Spike was surprised that she was so willingly guiding him to the diner despite his already sickly appearance. The last thing a sick vampire needed was food they couldn’t digest. Though unlike most vampires Spike’s metabolism was altering to handle more then just blood, to take in food albeit in occasional doses and not too great an overdose.
"Fast-food haven’t had it in a long time." The diner was… simple, yet classy. The walls riddled with items of all kinds, a scattering of framed posters and coloured glass lampshades that hand over the tables and booths. Spike glanced over at Beth, catching the movement of a girl approaching them, his bare arms lifting as if to shield his chest from the waitress that approached to offer them a place to seat. There was a pause from the girl, who seemed a bit taken by the look that Spike gave her, a grown man eyeing a nineteen year old cautiously, as if she may lash at him. However it was not her that Spike was timid about, but the rushing sound of blood that enticed his senses, the fear that he might lose control suddenly, he knew he could, he has in the past, he probably will in the future.
"For two?" There was not much of a hesitation after that as the long straight black haired girl lead them to one of the booth off in the corner, thankfully away from the stream of light that poured in. Spike scooted in, inching close to the wall and letting his shoulder brush against it. He hadn’t been out to places before, not in this world, he felt suddenly as if he was thrown into it and while he wasn’t sure how to react to being in a human establishment he wasn’t accustomed to how the humans themselves reacted around him. They may not be frightened of him but that didn’t mean he felt uncomfortable in their presence, perhaps it was the fact they weren’t afraid of him, how innocent and naïve they were to his presence…
"You know what you want to order or do you need a minute?" The girl had placed down menu’s but didn’t want to assume they needed time to look over things if they already knew what they wanted. Spike’s hands balled into fists and inched away from her as she placed down the menu, his eyes avoiding both Beth and they girl who’s name tag read ‘Melissa’ on it. The vampire glanced up at Bethany, his eyes watching her and waiting, he already said what he wanted to her, he didn’t need to repeat it, he didn’t need to speak to a human, a normal, innocent human… He had trouble enough talking to other students he didn’t know, total strangers on the streets were even more difficult for him to communicate with, he never felt they deserved to be in his presence, they’d know what he was the instant he opened his mouth, somehow, they’d know, it always had been the case back home, no matter what the demons did, more often then not, their identities were discovered in the rebel encampments.
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-"You know what you want to order or do you need a minute?"
Beth had taken the other seat sitting on the other side of the table as she looked over the menu.Beth glanced up at Spike and then at the waitress looking at the Blonde vampire Beth could tell he wasnt in the calmest of moods at that moment but neither would anyone if they had gone through what he had.Her dimeanor on the other hand which noone could really tell was one of concern for Spike. Beth was still a little hurt about how there conversation had ended in the alley, it was something that had been on her mind since. Beth was still somewhat human or rather had some emotion left in her but after Spike's words she started to wonder herself if that little peice of humanity would dissapear just like everything else in her life. Beth snapped out of it figuring there was no need for her to start being down on herself, she was there to be with Spike and make sure he was taken care of. She decided to play the nice customer looking up at the waitress named Melissa.
"Actually Melissa is it? I think we're ready to order he,ll have a double burger and a side of chips and Ill have a chicken sandwhich please." Beth took both menues and handed them to the waitress with a small smile aimed towards there hostess and the smile was returned as she turned and walked toward the kitchen. Thinking about what she had ordered she hoped that her system could handle it being so long since she had anything resembling solid food at least in her mind. For a few moments she didnt say anything to the Blonde vampire in front of her as he seemed like his mind was pre occupied but then when was it not.
Finally she decided to take the initative and start a conversation. Her body language shifted to someone who was calm and collected but for some people they could see right through it.
"Well hopefully the food will be here soon I havent eaten anything recently myself.....but on another subject Spike do you wanna talk about anything..... Im open to anything you half to say?"
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The blonde vampire pressed his body against the wall, almost squirming harder against it for a moment before relaxing, he was so anxious, so fidgety, unable to tell if he wanted to flop forward or start bouncing around. The bright eyes of the male vampire looked over towards Melissa, his gaze almost hungry for a moment but not for her blood… no, her silken skin, a soft tan probably unnaturally made, the way her hair fall, the way her eyes lit up in the light… so sweet, fresh…helpless. That’s how he felt right now, that’s how Rogue made him feel; helpless. He was’t helpless .. was he? No, Arisa wouldn’t let him be helpless… not after all he’d done for her… she wasn’t like Rogue, she wouldn’t just toss him aside.
"Well hopefully the food will be here soon I havent eaten anything recently myself.....but on another subject Spike do you wanna talk about anything..... Im open to anything you half to say?" Anything he had to say? His eyes lifted to Beth, a flare of anger raising and his hands clenching together as his arms laid in front of him on the table. Yeah, he had a few things on his mind, a few bloody things!
"He’s in *my* grounds," The growl slipped out smoothly and Spike’s reference to Illidan’s presence in the school was as vague and random as the vampire’s fleeting thoughts so often tended to be. "Haven’t seen’im yet…but’e stinks up th’med bay, takes what’s mine!" Why he was at the school Spike wasn’t sure, if he was kind or not, decent or not, nothing was known to Spike and yet the blonde vampire took a sever disliking to the creature the instant his scent was picked up.
"An not only does she pretend she don’know me," The elder vampire continued as if this had been the same track he’d been on the whole time, barely realizing the sudden shift in his trail of thoughts. "She walks into *my* home, an’en plays out how wonderful *my* bloody life is, an’en congratulates me an’leaves!" With his voice raising the nearer to the end he got, Spike nearly snarled in disgust of what his memories stirred up and pulled his hands back off the table, letting them fall down tensely to his lap. Rogue’s entire confusing road of ups and downs and lefts and rights was hardly the kind of stability Spike had gotten used to over the few months he was alone with her and things seemed so… perfect. Instead of the building anger that threatened to spill over, Spike had an almost exhausted look, his body leaning against the wall and his eyes looking so tired and struggle to stay open. He wasn’t sleepy exactly, he was sick…his emotions were draining, his hunger nagging, his trauma’s never ending and yet it seemed there were highs and lows… he’s left a really nice high and got stuck into a horrible feeling and persistent low.
"..Why don’t you want sit next to me?" Straightening his body a little, Spike sat up straighter, a hand resting on the tables top and his other on the cushioned bench he sat upon, his piercing eyes focused sharply on Beth’s "Are you avoidin’ me too?"
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"He’s in *my* grounds,haven’t seen’im yet…but’e stinks up th’med bay, takes what’s mine!"
Beth listened in her attention never faultering as she listened to Spike. Seemed like the blonde vampire taking her up on her offer to talk was a understatement as she at least somewhat bombarded the vampiress with a bunch of different thoughts. the first being about someone she didnt know at least yet...
An not only does she pretend she don’know me, She walks into *my* home, an’en plays out how wonderful *my* bloody life is, an’en congratulates me an’leaves!.
As she continued to listen Spike who changed subjects with the next of them being a she which he kept repeating who Beth had a inkling in her brain of who it might be and if it wouldnt have attracted attention from the demon sitting across from her she would have rolled her eyes at him but at the same time she wasnt sure if he was in fact talking about Rogue. She wanted to think that it was but his life had been so long it could have been someone else and she was jumping the gun.
The truth was she welcomed it in by asking him if and what he wanted to talk about so being the friend she at least tryed to be she listened in and let him get out everything he needed to. The next thing he said though caught her completely by surprise.
"..Why don’t you want sit next to me? Are you avoidin’ me too?"
At first the short haired vampiress had no idea what to say. .....The first time in a while something not said by her had completely caught her off guard. She hesitated for a moment trying to get her thoughts in mind, seperating her true feelings from her animalistic needs. Her eyes drifted back up looking directly into the blonde vampire in front of her as a small smile came to her face.
"Spike if I was avoiding you do you think Id be here looking at those beautiful eyes?"She said slowly moving her left hand to cover his, she then removed it getting up from her seat and moving to the other side to sit by him.....that was after all what he had asked her why she wasnt. Part of her had a inkling of a thought that Spike wasnt in his right mind but in there last conversations he wasnt somewhat so this wasnt anything new but she at least wanted to be a comforting presance for him. "I do feel for you Spike otherwise I wouldnt be here and thats the truth."
She said as the waitress came by with another tables plates. As she tryed to pass Beths hand stopped her gently.
"Excuse me but any idea when our orders will be here my friend here is starving?"
{"Oh no problem it should be done in the next few minutes."}
Beth then gave a short nod to the waitress as she walked off
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"Spike if I was avoiding you do you think Id be here looking at those beautiful eyes?" Beautiful eyes? Spike stared at her, blinking slightly more then needed, turning his gaze down to the hand that now covered his. It was removed quickly, like a blanket being placed over his shoulders and then ripped off just as the warmth was starting to settle, the cold once again seeping into his skin. Sapphire eyes lifted to watch as Beth moved, standing up, the thought of her about to walk out flickering through his mind, though his surprise as she moved to sit beside the elder vampire.
"I do feel for you Spike otherwise I wouldnt be here and thats the truth." Feel for him? Like Rogue felt for him? Or like Dru felt for him? Or Willow? The common thing being the undead ladies seem to end up trying to kill him off, and the living ones don’t seem to like hanging around him much after a certain amount of time, if at all. While Spike thought Bethany turned her attention to the waitress, and something about the way she took hold of the girl was reminding him about all the wrong times he’d witnessed or been part of during his existence in Lost Angels. "Excuse me but any idea when our orders will be here my friend here is starving?" Pretty girl… not the best, but not the plainest either, Spike’s eyes staring at her face, watching the lips as they spoke, always amazed by the difference in attitude the humans here had towards him compared to the humans back home. Cool lips brushed against Beth’s shoulder, blue eyes closing and a soft rumbling of what could be tagged as a purr in the depths of his throat.
"…Haven’t seen Marilyn’ave you?" The question, random as it seemed, was one that Spike had pondered for a long while yet, since he first saw the girl, first heard of her relation to the deceased vampire that Spike seems to have swapped lives with. The thought of the girl caused him to wonder about who else was out there… he’d ask someone about it, Garnet was pretty good with computers, maybe at some point he’ll discuss it with her… or maybe he should just leave it… people tended not to do so well once he got involved in their lives.
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As the waitress walked off Beth felt lower part the Blonde vampires face leaning its way onto her shoulder. This didnt surprise her but the reason behind it was different. Was he tired? Was he showing affection? Both? She didnt know at this point but she didnt complain. However the next thing that came out of Spikes mouth caught her a little by surprise.
"…Haven’t seen Marilyn’ave you?"
The question although a simple one hit Beth like a mack truck as she wasnt ready for it. She took a long pause trying to think back through all the faces she had met, both pleasant and unpleasant. Friends and enemies and the list was long enough when she came to a face that she somewhat remembered after all she had only met her once. Her memory recounted a young blonde haired girl who Beth had ideas she might be a vampiress shortly after arriving at the mansion. She seemed quiet and pleasant but something about her that Beth couldnt really pick up on didnt set well in her but never really followed up on it.
The Brunette haired vampiress snapped herself back to reality which to her seemed like a eternity she had thought about the question but in truth was only a few brief moments. She decided first off to make a little bit of a response to Spike's contact with her and put her hand on his left leg and rubbed it slowly for a moment before anwsering the question.
"Honestly Spike you kind of took me by surprise with that question but I think I remember this Marilyn your asking about. iI know shes been around the institite but Ive caught her scent probably most recently around New York. Other then that I really cant give you much info." She said wishing she could be more help but then her own question came to her mind, Not that she was the jealous type but at the same time just a little curious. "Who is she If I may ask luv...."
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It wasn’t the response Spike had expected, if one could say he expected anything. But the fact that Beth’s hand had rested on his thigh was enough to unravel what little concentration he felt he was getting back. The shirtless vampire looked worse for wear, the looks he got from the others in the café, be them workers or patrons were the looks that made Spike think of himself as nothing but a human back in the Slave pens of Lost Angels. Blue eyes dropped their gaze, passing over Beth’s hand, when Dru touched him like that she always wanted something… then again Dru always did demand his attention and she always did want something from him and for whatever reason Spike could never deny her… granted there were quite a few times where he had tried.
"Honestly Spike you kind of took me by surprise with that question but I think I remember this Marilyn your asking about. iI know shes been around the institite but Ive caught her scent probably most recently around New York. Other then that I really cant give you much info." New York? Spike’s bare toes curled, he didn’t really know what he’d say if he did see her again but he was curious to find out what it was he found important about that woman… she was a vampire… that much he did remember. "Who is she If I may ask luv...." Who indeed… Spike lifted his eyes to stare at Beth, she wasn’t Rogue… and that hurt, because… he wouldn’t mind just touching her lips, he wasn’t stupid, nor was he blind but had been intentionally ignoring the signs he knew were there. He couldn’t let his mind wander, he couldn’t let his hands wander, not with Rogue in his life… she was still part of his life, wasn’t she? She still might return to him, if he was patient… but it was so hard to be patient. There was a moment of stillness, one that ended with Spike leaning forward just the slightest closer towards her, only to flinch as the waitress dropped the food on the table.
"I want to ask her… I want to know who she is." The reply came in a confused tone, struggling to remain focused as his eyes moved to the waitress and hovered only long enough to see her leave for the other side of the room before once again his blue eyes turned to Beth. It was frustrating! While Rogue called out to his human side this woman called out to his animal half, the vampire, the monster, the beast within. Like a siren to her shores he’s always felt that tug and perhaps that’s why in all honesty he had struggled so hard to spend as little time as possible with her all these months. As upsetting as it was for Beth… it sometimes felt like the only option he had.
"Things keep changin’… I ain’t ready for no more changes… even the changes I want, I’m jus’ not ready for’em pet… everything jus’hurts all over again. Wha'ever I do doesn't seem worth it in th'end." The blonde seemed to cringe just as he mentioned the pain, his cramps almost trying to prove a point though in so many ways Spike had asked for this to happen. It was his fault he was like this… it was his fault for so many things that had happened, and he couldn’t let temptation become an excuse for having allowed so many wrongs he had committed. Even as recent as with allowing Arisa to feed him off her own blood for a while, he knew it shouldn’t have happened, but he wasn’t strong enough to deny her the first time, and it got so much harder each time after once he had come to his senses. Whilst staring at his food, Spike withdrew into himself for a moment, his hands moving to cradle over his stomach as it tightened, a touch of human hunger blending with that of his vampire self. Such a bizarre feeling… and yet Spike’s mind was focused on something so much more important.
"I think I love’er… I think I always will… even if she doesn’t in return… how do people live with that? How do they stop the hurt inside?" Sure he knew that bad would come with the good, he wanted his soul and with it his emotions grew all the more stronger. It was just something that he had to deal with. But he just wasn’t sure how well he’d cope… he didn’t seem ready to handle all this that was being thrown at him, that much he knew for sure.
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"I want to ask her… I want to know who she is."Beth listened intently as Spike anwsered her question but to be honest it wasnt the response she was expecting....to Beth this Marilyn seemed like Spike knew her fairly well but she had a feeling there was more to this then was let on whether it was on purpose or not.
Even with all going on around her the vampiress attention didnt wain a moment as she listened to Spike.
"Things keep changin’… I ain’t ready for no more changes… even the changes I want, I’m jus’ not ready for’em pet… everything jus’hurts all over again. Wha'ever I do doesn't seem worth it in th'end." Beth really felt for Spike or rather as much as a souless demon could. Pain and sorrow seemed to follow the Blonde vampire where he went and that was something Beth related to. "I think I love’er… I think I always will… even if she doesn’t in return… how do people live with that? How do they stop the hurt inside?"
She waited for a few moments and then spoke up.
"Spike I dont know what to say. If I said I had a inkling of the sorrow you must feel Id be lying but one thing is for certain at least how I feel is that if something means more to you that you would be willing to go through what you have then you do deserve someone to be there on the otherside. If your heart still yearns for someone else then at least allow me to be your friend......It hurts for me to say such a thing but I would rather be a friend and be a part of your life then not be in it at all."Beth took a few moments of silence then as she was about to say something her sences picked up a certain something or rather someone. She knew Marilyn's scent from there brief encounter but it seemed to coincidental Marilyn being so close when she was one of the major topics of discussion.
Re: Another Time Another Place - March 18-"Spike I dont know what to say. If I said I had a inkling of the sorrow you must feel Id be lying but one thing is for certain at least how I feel is that if something means more to you that you would be willing to go through what you have then you do deserve someone to be there on the otherside." But it always seemed there wasn't anyone there, not when he needed it, not when everything he struggled so hard to be depended on someone else to be there and pull him up! "If your heart still yearns for someone else then at least allow me to be your friend..." What was the point though, who it urned for wanted nothing to do with him and no matter how hard he tried to think, Spike couldn't figure out why! "...It hurts for me to say such a thing but I would rather be a friend and be a part of your life then not be in it at all." Stringing her on had never been Spike's intentions, and while part of him was glade for what was saying, for the distance she was offering, another part, however, just felt like saying 'the hell with it'. They were both vampires, in the past his vampiric girlfriends had been anything but pleasant, but this was a new world, a new life... And Beth wasn't exactly a mercilous overlord as Dru had been..
Maybe he should just cave in... Rogue didn't deserve his loyalty, no matter how desperate he was to give it, she didn't care! Though before the thought could even fully form in his mind, Bethany's voice was distracting him with another comment, this time unrelated to their previous discussions.
"Luv you picking up what I am?" Fresh meat waltzing around? Somehow Spike doubted Beth was asking about the scent of humans... though it seemed their smell was so much more potent then usual.. " 'friad I ain't seeing much more then walkin' happy meals.. an' their loud drummin' in my head." The referrence of 'happy meals' was used towards the people around them and their pulsing heartbeats bumping through their entire body. "What is it?"
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" 'friad I ain't seeing much more then walkin' happy meals.. an' their loud drummin' in my head. What is it?"
For a few moments the brunette haired demon didnt say a word as she cleared her sences of the drumming as Spike had put it and started to quickly weed out those she wasnt interested in to find the demon that had taken up the vampires' conversation. As Beth started to get close she realized Marilyn was on her way two them obviously picking up on Spike's or Beth's scent or maybe even both. She knew Marilyn wasn't a danger at least for now and Spike had wanted to find her so it seemed like fate had solved there problem for them.
A smile smile crept on Beths face as she put her consentration back on the Blonde haired vampire in front of her. "Well Spike its the person you had asked me about and I you just a few moments ago. Marilyn is close by I know her scent. Even with all the so called beating happy meals."
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Less than a block away another Blonde haired demon had the same intentions in finding Spike and Beth. It had been months since Marilyn had seen any sign of her adopted father and although she knew he was ok part of her missed him.....well as much of missing him as a demons personality would let her. She wondered down the sidewalk following Spike's scent till she stopped at the corner facing her destination. A smile appeared on her face as she saw a glimpse of the top of Spike's hair out of the corner of her eye.
"Well this should be interesting...." She quickly crossed the street making her way toward and inside the diner her smile widened as she saw Spike and Beth sitting in a corner booth. She slowly started to make her way towards the two vampires hoping that she could surprise them but she had a feeling that was a lost cause.
"Marilyn!" Beth said with a smile as she got up and gave the blondie haired vampiress a welcoming hug......a rarity for her.
Edited by: Creed XM at: 12/30/06 11:24 am
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